THE END'S NOT NEAR ; IT'S HERE

The One With His Big Dream

2010-01-17T17:19:00.005+08:00

One day, I will attend the Oscar Academy Awards, and sit next to Jake Gyllenhaal.

cos if you don't dream big, what's the use of dreaming?

The One With All The Small Things

2010-01-16T15:59:00.002+08:00

I think i am really the 90's baby. Because i still find Blink 182 and Incubus are way way cooler than My Chemical Romance and Avenged Sevenfold.

The One With The 2010 First Post.

2010-01-01T19:44:00.002+08:00

Happy 2010 everyone. I hope you'll have a good one. And i do hope it will be a great year for me too. I dont imagine it to be easier. I am aware with the fact that a lot of people might be leaving me this year. And as for my college life, i also do not expect it to be more fun and i doubt(huge doubt) Malacca will top KL as my favourite place to be at. Lets just hope i'll have a great year. Happy New Year everyone !

The One With The Best Year.

2010-01-01T19:22:00.004+08:00

So 2009 is finally ended yesterday. As cliche as it may sounds, it feels funny how time flies so fast.

I still remember how i wrote my new year post last year. I was wondering whether i'll write an emo post at the end of the year fr another bad years in my life or something good will happen. And I think now is the best time to tell the answer. 2009 definitely is the best year i've ever had since, i cant remember when.

Not to exaggerate or anything, but seriously, i cant remember when's the last time i feel this happy. Okay, it's not that i am 24/7 happy, but you know what i mean? heh. Except for my SPM's result, everything else's was great , i think. It's like my new life. I'm hanging out with a lot of new people, be friends with new people, and in 2009, I met a wonderful girl who is probably the main reason why i am this happy now.

I dont think my 2009 would be this great if i didnt meet you in the first place. and yes, by you , i mean The Girlfriend. I la-la-la-la-love you !

ps; it's new year, and im allowed to be jiwang kan?

The One With The 70's show

2009-12-24T05:37:00.007+08:00

I think people would think I am 600 times cooler than i am now if I look like Ashton Kutcher

Holiday is gonna end soon. I know I wasnt being as productive as I wish I'd be , but i really dont want the holiday to end. So what if I get bored spending my time at home? It's not like i have a great time in college anyways?

Anyway, Christmas is tomorrow. In case i wont be in the writing mood tomorrow, ill just wish you guys today. Merry Christmas or Happy Hannukah or to those who will celebrate both , Happy Christmukkah.

The One With The Plan B

2009-12-19T07:46:00.004+08:00

This picture should be the best answer on why cant i be a model. Just look at the pose. I dont think any designer would hire a model with a weird hand postures while posing for their products. What a waste, sbb muka dah ada dah.

Oh Sa'diyah should be orang yang ke sembilan puluh lapan ratus to think that i am fat now. (forgive me, i am a fan of exaggerating)

Quote of the week

"you never wanna underestimate the power of the sympathy vote"

no, im not gonna post cool quotes every week. I just wrote Quote of the WEEK to make it sounds cooler because i figured quote of the century might sounds too much.

The One With The Moving On Talk

2009-11-26T05:33:00.007+08:00

Moving On, probably one of the hardest thing to do in life. The lyrics of Ben Harper’s song (which then cover by Joe Brooks) – “ So hard to do , but so easy to say “ in reference to the Move On part , caught my eyes which I think one of the reason why i wrote this post. People, especially friends always expect their friends (who suffer from a break up) to move on because they think it’s the best thing to do. It is, but like the lyrics said, it’s easier to say than done. Especially when that person has fallen deeply to that person who left him/her.

One major fact that you have to realize before you starts dating (or falling in love with someone at least) , you have to be aware that there is always a possibilities that the relationship wont work out ( or in the falling in love case, get rejected ). I’m not saying that you have to think about the possibilities of you breaking up everyday, because that’s just plain stupid. You can however, set in mind that breaking up or get rejected is part of human’s life.

One thing that I dont understand is when people started to hate their ex (-es) after being dumped by them. Well it make sense if that person lied, not being honest, or used you for any particular reason, that it is okay to hate that person. But I don’t understand when people tend to hate their ex-es just because the former boyfriend/girlfriend is falling for someone else. No, I didn’t mean cheating. What I meant was, when one person, honestly tell their boyfriend/girlfriend that they want to end the relationship (this case is usually still accept by people). But when the reason for the break up is because she/ he meets someone new, the people who just being dumped tend to hate the honest boyfriend/girlfriend who have the guts to admit that they like someone new. Isn’t it better for them to admit to you rather than they have an affair behind you? Or isn’t it better for them to come clean rather that hiding (lying) their feelings, and pretend like they still love you?

Loyalty should be the issue here. But sometimes, u just cant blame them ( unless you have proved that they did it on purpose or they just trying to play with you heart, and all of this belong to the other case – dishonest ). I mean, yes, one should be loyal to their boyfriend/girlfriend. However, we have to accept the fact that sometimes, it is beyond our control. Sometimes you just fall for someone else even if you don’t want it to happen. Yes, we can fight it, but it is hard right? This is nature of life and we really can’t do anything about it.

Well,who am I kidding? Of course we will be mad if our boyfriend/girlfriend left us for another person. But what you can do is to keep the feelings inside. Or maybe share with someone. DON’T go texting them or post in your blog and tell them how much you hate them. Or tell everyone that your ex is a bitch. It is wrong and stupid. Be mature , don’t do it ( Bitching about them to your heart is fine tho )

“it's so hard to do and so easy to say.
But sometimes - sometimes,
you have to walk away - walk away.

With so many people to love in my life, why do I worry about one?"

Ben Harper/ Joe Brooks - Walk Away

So yes, only thing that you can do is to move on. Even if you cant find someone new, just try to be happy. You don’t need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy. Just live your life and pray that one day you’ll find your replacement.

Ps : Please don’t be mad at me for trying to sound clever by writing this post. Blame the holidays. And trust me, even I am not sure why of all the topics that people can think of when they’re bored, I chose this topic.

The One Where Hand-ry Denies Irish's Dream

2009-11-20T14:52:00.003+08:00

The World Cup Qualifying ended last Tuesday. 5 team won their play-off match to complete the list of 32 team who qualify for World Cup 2010 in South Africa.

The main highlight for the play-off was the goal scored by the French team to win them the game against Ireland. Because Henry clearly handle the ball using his hand before he assisted the ball to Gallas who scored the winning goal. And the best part is, Henry do admit that he used his hand but he did not have the guts to tell the ref about that. I was quite disappointed because I want Ireland to win. No, I am not a fan of Ireland, but I am just not a fan of France. And I wished they didnt make it to the World Cup. But sadly, they do qualify.

Other sad news is, Russia also did not make it to the World Cup. They lost to Slovenia. Kalau Russia kalah, takde la Arshavin nanti. Kurang comel la World Cup ;( haha. * I dont know why I keep telling people about Arshavin. And he's not even a Man United player. pelik ah.

The One With The Favourite Hollywood Couple

2009-11-18T03:41:00.004+08:00

Brad Pitt & Angelina Jolie

Ben Affleck & Jennifer Garner

David Beckham & Victoria

Jay-Z & Beyonce

Tom Cruise & Katie Holmes

Soon enough, you'll find my name in the paper/magazines

which is in the same section as them.

And of course by then , ill be wearing a very cool tux.

I am Syahmi. For a small guy, i have a BIG dream.

The One With The End Of The Chapter 1

2009-11-18T02:56:00.002+08:00

I am on my semester break now. Finally. After 5-6 months stuck in Melaka, I am finally back in KL * padahal balik KL every week kan. But its good to be home tho :)

So my first semester is officially finished last Sunday after my Sociology test. To be honest , it was quite a good run so far. Well, at least it was better than what i expected. Being in Uitm Malacca isnt that bad. Except for the part where i have to figure out how to balik every weekend, and tonnes of assignment , everything else was okay. Well , yes there was some bad things happened, but i'd rather forget about it.

Let's talk about my room. I LOVE MY ROOM. Why? Because it's cooler than your room. Well better than Saarah's room at least. ( saja cari gaduh ). why? because my room has an air-conditioner . And I love my roommates. Well, not love lah. I dont love people that easily. haha but yeah, i like them as my roommate. My classmates are okay. To be honest , I am not that close to most of them, and I dont think I have any close guy friends. Sad eh? I am only close to two of the girls in the class which i dont think is necessary for me to mention their names here.

In short, my first semester was fine. and I hope, I really hope i can make into the Dean List this semester. Amin

*sorry for the late updates. Ive been busy. Ill update more interesting post next time. BYE.

The One Where The Balloon Guy Makes It Awkward

2009-10-12T01:49:00.007+08:00

I'm an eighteen years old now :D. i feel old. First , i have a niece. Now, i am turning eighteen. Ish. Thanks to those who wish though it was only a few people who wished me ( complain kan?). And if any of you wish me in the morning or later than 2 am, i will assume that u guys just remember that today is my birthday because you have read this post, and even if you didnt read , i will still make the same assumption. ( i dont know why im being so emo)

Okay, i was joking. This year's birthday was different from last year or any other birthday before. It was special, really. I don't want to tell you why , go and guess it. :)

And oh, i want a Hugsy for my birthday present. But not the hugsy that are sold at the store ( if there is still any la) , but i want Joey's Hugsy. Which I believe is keep by Rachel's Daughter , Emma now.

ps: Syahmi busy mcm orang paling busy di dunia. Harap maaf kalau blog takde update sampailah exam dia habis. Terima kasih

Syahmi's busy like the most busiest person on earth. Sorry if there's not update in the blog until his exam finished. Thank You.

Anyone please write the same thing I wrote in another 5 different languages. Nanti i belanja Ice Cream Paddle Pop Rainbow, okay?

The One With The Raya Wishes

2009-09-22T05:27:00.005+08:00

I think im gonna change my blog to a fashion blog. Meaning , im not gonna write anything that happen around me, instead i am gonna update you with the latest fashion and trend in town. I might also update you with the new and hot model.

Duh, it's suppose to be a joke . You guys seriously have to work on your sense of humor. I cant believe none of you were laughing at this. I wonder how bad the blog will be if I handle a fashion's blog. ( but i do think i can write lots of good post about hot model tho)

Anyway , I wanna take this opportunity to wish you guys , SELAMAT HARI RAYA , MAAF ZAHIR BATIN. Sorry for all the wrong doings i have done because I'm not a perfect person, theres many things i wish i didn't do but I continue learning, I never meant to do those things to you ( serious ni ayat sendiri). Okay seriously, if I ever hurt or offended you , intentionally or unintentionally , i do hope you can forgive me.

Have an amazing raya everyone !

The One With The Magic Number

2009-09-18T03:20:00.005+08:00

AA : Are you coming back this wednesday?

SR : No, im coming back on next wednesday.

AA : How can u balik on next wednesday if raya is on sunday?

SR : Because my UITM is following the UK schedule. So they dont give us holiday for raya.

AA : Really?

Yes, she really believed it at first.

Oh its SEVEN HEAVEN !

5 months to go and we'll make history of our own.

You know it was your love that saved me

The answer to my prayers you gave me

And I hope I'll be all you deserve

The One Where Socializing Is Really Not His Thing

2009-09-12T05:58:00.002+08:00

Sorry for abandoning my blog for quite a while. I was quite busy for these past few weeks. And take note that I don’t even bring my laptop to Melaka, so it is hard for me to update this blog frequently. And nothing much happened for the last few weeks.

Let’s talk about my life in college. I think, if not because of Saarah Jasmine and few of my roommates, (and my air-conditioned room), I don't think I would survive here. Luckily I have them. My classmates? I don’t think I have many friends. Or I don’t think I even have one. (Oh I really love to exaggerate). Okay it’s not that I don’t have a friend. It’s just that I don’t have anyone in class that I can really talk to or even hang out with. Pathetic right? I know.

I feel like a Seth Cohen now. ( I also love to compare myself with a cool character from the tv) Except for the part that the audiences especially girls love his character and I don’t think people would love Syahmi if he is a Tv character. But we never know until I have my own tv show, kan? Maybe the audiences will love me too? Okay dah lari topic. He (Seth) too, doesn’t have friends. But he has his Ryan besides him. I don’t even have my Ryan. Bitch, I should stop using The OC ‘language’ in my blog post.

People think that I am an antisocial. but they forgot how shy I can be.

The One With The 2 Questions

2009-09-10T01:26:00.003+08:00

Life shouldnt be this hard, isn't it?

Syahmi is not a quitter , isn't he?

The One With The Fun Post.

2009-09-02T14:47:00.003+08:00

Welcome to the O.C , Bitch !

Just wait ! Because that will surely be the first thing that i'll say once i get the chance to go to Newport Beach , California. ahaha.

College is hectic like fun fair. Only that it is not as fun as a fun fair. I dont know why i described fun fair as hectic. And fun fair is not that fun tho. Funfair is so overrated. I'd rather be at home and watch tv than going to a fun fair.

And i'm not here to talk about fun fair. Or any other fair. Not even Fair-ry or Fair-rarri.

But i am here just to update my blog because my blog won't be fun if did not update it. I want it to be fun like a fun fair. And because Ms Saarah told me to update my blog or she wont belanja me burger special tak nak sayur.

Oh, Man United won against Arsenal. Hebat bukan ?

The One With The First Day Of Ramadhan

2009-08-22T02:34:00.003+08:00

HAPPY RAMADHAN EVERYONE !

and im craving for burger and waffle. how great is that?

The One With The Reason For It To End Tonight

2009-08-17T11:15:00.006+08:00

I wanted to update my blog about MTV WORLD STAGE but i seriously dont know what to write here. So i will just gonna say that MTV WORLD STAGE was fucking awesome ( saja nk mencarut awal awal , nnt bulan puasa dah tak boleh nk mencarut).

And oh, Denise Keller sangat hot !

The One Where Liosel Became Ramlee

2009-08-10T12:33:00.008+08:00

After watching Ghost Of Girlfriend's Past , i feel like i have to do something so I can be a Hollywood actor. Why ? Because I wanna be Ben Affleck . Why do i wanna be Ben Affleck? Because his wife is Jennifer Garner . . .

Damn you Affleck. Luckily Kate Hudson is still single.

Anyway, i think my acting is funny. Being Ramlee(Liosel) in The Necklace made me realize that i am not a good actor . ish. But the good part is, i was complimented by the person who won the best actor ( someone who i never talked to) because apparently he thinks that i was good. Haha. pandai ambil hati. Tapi sorry la beb, Syahmi kedekut. Tak dapat nak belanja makan.

And I wonder why did I tell the whole world that im kedekut.

The One With The Different Author

2009-08-03T01:26:00.002+08:00

Yes people, miss Roslyn Ruslan hacked my blog and wrote the last post. Sungguh berani dia ni.

I shall get my revenge soon. But i'll have to figure out how to get her password first.

Anyone who can give me her password, ill give you 1 gula - gula hacks for every letter you give.

Oh, anyway, i won myself a MTV World Stage mosh pit ticket. Syahmi sangat cool. (yes, i purposely wrte it here because i want to make Roslyn jealous)

The One with Roslyn, My Dream Girl.

2009-08-02T23:03:00.005+08:00

I love ROSLYN RUSLAN RAHMAN.

Why? Because she introduced me to MY Azureen.

(And no, this is not Roslyn. This is obviously Syahmi)

Btw, my nickname as a child is Boboi. And, I like Rexona Men's. Also, I have a fetish for shoes and tees. I shop like a woman. If I were a woman, I'd make the next Isla Fisher in Confessions of a Shopaholic.

(And again, this is not Roslyn)

Let's end this post with a brilliant picture of the cutest female this earth has/will ever concieve:

Oh, Roslyn, if only I were single.

The One With His Hollywood Dream

2009-08-02T20:18:00.002+08:00

One Little Secret about me is, I always want to be a Hollywood actor. If people ask why, i would say that Matt LeBlanc is the reason why. This dream came out a few years back. When i see how Matt Leblanc in Friends, watching how he entertain the crowd with his jokes and even his face expression, make me think, i wanna be him. I want to entertain the crowd.

Its funny how i got inspired by him but i dont think become a comedy actor is something that i really want to do. Well , its good to be a comedian but im more interested in a dramatic role. I know Syahmi and Dramatic doesnt really fit into the same group but i just wish that one day, ill be able to become a good actor and I just hope that i could be in Hollywood one day.

Well besides Matt LeBlanc, theres actually a lot of other actors that i admire them for their good acting. And they are ;
- Ben Affleck
- Johnny Depp
- Orlando Bloom
- Cameron Diaz
- Ashton Kutcher
- Adam Sandler
- Matthew Perry
- Jennifer Garner
- Shia Lebouef
- Owen Wilson
- Scarlett Johansson

There a few more i think . But like usual , Syahmi ni pelupa orangnya. Banyak makan semut mungkin?

The One With The Annoying Question

2009-08-02T20:05:00.005+08:00

I really hate it when people keep asking me , "Why do u wanna go home on every weekend? " . Well i dont mind if you are asking , but then ill find it annoying when you guys think that Syahmi is mengada just because he wants to balik every weekend.If you are my parents then i would understand because i used their money for my bus ticket ( sorry ma, sorry pa ) , but why does it bother you if I wanna go home every week?

You wanna know why? Let me tell you why.

Because i have a life here. I have a life in KL. So stop asking me that stupid question.

The One Where The Brother Is His Mentor

2009-07-27T13:47:00.005+08:00

Being away from KL is never easy. This is not even the first time but it still feels hard. Being away from certain people is hard. But i have to learn to cope with it right? I know that 2 years from now things wont get any easier. If Syafeeq Abd Rahim and Noor Indahayatie can do it , so can we right? I seriously wish that i could be as tough as him. and i seriously hope that they wont find this post. (please dont go google your name Mr Syafeeq And Ms Indahayatie)

We're a picture
In my mind
When I wanna find you
I just close my eyes

The One Where He Didn't Get To Eat The Pizza

2009-07-26T02:50:00.005+08:00

So i was invited to another birthday party on friday ( gaya cakap mcm selalu je kan di invite ke party party) sungguh tak malu Syahmi Abd Rahim ini. Anyway, it was Armand's birthday party. Armand Adli. Not the other Armand. ( M , you know which Armand i was referring to) and yes , i have to be specific because apparently Armand is no longer a unique name. I used to think that Armand is a unique name, but now , everyone is Armand. How weird? That makes my name become so special. So please, oh please, name your future kids after me because Syahmi is a special name. Why do I want you to name your kid after me? ask me personally. susah cerita sini. And I dont even know why am i talking about people's name.

Anyway, the only problem WE ( we is me and The Girlfriend ) had were to find a birtday present for the birthday boy. Because someone's being very fussy. ( I just being sarcastic to myself , how lame is that ? ). BUT, this brilliant , and cute boy came out with the brilliant idea about what to give the birthday boy. And again, i dont want to tell it here. Tell me if you're interested to know what did we give him.

Since the idea came out quite late, so we arrived at Armand's house 1 hour late. And when we reached there, The pizza was already finished. How sad is that? Luckily there was still some bbq's chickens left. ( not that lucky actually, because i still want pizza ).

And yes, Syahmi ditolak ke dalam swimming pool ketika party itu. ( i forgot who pushed me)

The party was great ! and I think he is lucky to have his own birthday party. But no, u dont have to do any party for me. Its not like i want it so bad. It just that i never celebrate my birthday since i was 6. And jangan tanya orang pernah plan buat suprise for Syahmi's birthday tak because the answer is obviouly no. But yea, its just a birthday. Birthday is not that important right? Its just another special day of your life and i will turn 18 this year , which everyone always label it as a legal age. So most ppl think its a special number. I dont really believe in that. But I know I will only turn 18 once. But whatever right?

-Syahmi Abd Rahim is very pathetic. Jangan layan sangat.

The One With The New Born Baby

2009-07-23T00:11:00.003+08:00

Welcome to the world Nur Sarah Hani. She was born on 21 July 2009 at 9.45 pm . Syahmi Abd Rahim is an uncle now. I feel old. Congrats to Mr Shazwan and Mdm Huda as well. ( bukannya diorang akan baca pun ) . My dad sudah jadi Datuk. Dato' Abd Rahim? haha. berangan la lebih.

The One With Roslyn's New Socks

2009-07-20T23:02:00.004+08:00

Most of you would be wondering , how did Syahmi Abd Rahim spent his holiday? Oh he used it very wisely. Today , he went to Bangsar to see The Girlfriend at her college. Well not exactly her college la because she had to pick him up at the Bangsar's LRT station. And then they went to eat Swedish Meatball at Stokholm, Sweden. Janganlah percaya, tipu sahaja. They went to Ikea for lunch. And yes , to eat Swedish Meatball and Daim cake. After spending about 3 hours at Ikea and The Curve , they decided to leave , to pick Miss Roslyn Roslan because apparently this future architect needs a new pair of socks. Jusco Alpha Angel was the next destination. Roslyn decided to buy the blue socks because the pink socks will look boring on her pink Avia shoes. Yes, Avia , not converse or quicksilver.

So , basically, that is how Syahmi spend his holiday. Sangat interestingkan? Ini ada beberapa gambar Roslyn yang ~~dipaksa letak~~ ditangkap tadi.

Roslyn Dan Stokin Baru

Roslyn Dan Si Sushi

BERITA GEMPAR !
Roslyn dijumpai memakai baju kolej HELP. Adakah Roslyn Seorang Traitor?
Nantikan berita selanjutnya di akhbar Metro Ahad.

Gaya Seorang Gangster.

The One With The Fake Virus

2009-07-20T00:00:00.003+08:00

Syahmi. says:
psst
Roslyn Ruslan says:
apa?
Syahmi. says:
this is not syahmi
Roslyn Ruslan says:
hehhheheheh
Syahmi. says:
this is a virus
Roslyn Ruslan says:
pssst
Syahmi. says:
your laptop will be explode in 10 seconds
Syahmi. says:
10
Syahmi. says:
9
Syahmi. says:
8
Syahmi. says:
7
Syahmi. says:
6
Syahmi. says:
5 and a half
Syahmi. says:
5
Syahmi. says:
4
Syahmi. says:
3
Syahmi. says:
2
Syahmi. says:
1
Roslyn Ruslan says:
GO AWAY
Syahmi. says:
happy new year
Syahmi. says:
YEAYY
Roslyn Ruslan says:
GO AWAY
Syahmi. says:
okay
Roslyn Ruslan says:
ur scaring me
Syahmi. says:
*the virus is succesfully removed from ur laptop*
Syahmi. says:
congratulations !
Roslyn Ruslan says:
SYAHMI
Roslyn Ruslan says:
scary la
Roslyn Ruslan says:
i sampai tutup the conversation
Syahmi. says:
hahaha
Roslyn Ruslan says:
Scary la
Roslyn Ruslan says:
i was scared
Roslyn Ruslan says:
to death
Roslyn Ruslan says:
i wanted to turn off my laptop

The One Where He Doesn't Get It

2009-07-19T23:38:00.003+08:00

I just couldnt understand why does people keep on disagree with me when i say Paris Hilton is HOT !!! Yes , i am aware with the fact that she doesnt have a body of Scarlett but there is something about Paris that makes her look interesting. I just couldnt tell what but its something about her face. Tapi Scarlett , Kate Hudson dan Megan Fox tetap di hati.

anyway, who do u think is better, Batman or Spiderman?
Lets compare who is the better superhero ( or in malay we called it adiwira , pelik kan superhero jadi adiwira? )

* Batman has Robin as his partner. Spiderman has no partner
* Batman ada batmobile . Spiderman takda kereta.
* Batman punya suit lagi cool. Spiderman punya suit tak cool.
* Spiderman boleh cium dalam keadaan terbalik. Batman tak boleh.

Jadi pemenangnya adalah Spiderman. Sebab dia ada skill cium dalam keadaan terbalik. Ssh Batman nak kalah kan dia.

The One With The Short Confession

2009-07-14T17:23:00.004+08:00

Even if the moon fell down tonight , there would be nothing to worry about at all because you make the whole world shine

Oh, what a wonderful five months.

The One With The First Half

2009-07-12T02:57:00.002+08:00

Its amazing how quick the time is moving. We already past the first half of 2009. How did 2009 been treating u so far? Good ? Bad?

Its been a wonderful year for me so far. Except for the SPM's result part, everything was great. I met a lot of new people this year, been hanging out with a lot of new people as well. I can consider 2009 as my new life. New people , new environment and yes new life. No , i dont mean that ive left everyone that ive known in my past life behind. I did "bring" this few people into my new life. But i have to admit that it is very few. Only some who actually care for me, i just cant let them go.

And to those whom i just met this year, or getting close to, this year, thank you. My life would be empty without u guys. And i wish things will get better on the 2nd half of the year.

I hope i would write another good post about 2009 at the end of this year.

The One With The Russian Face

2009-07-11T15:39:00.008+08:00

Kenapa Arshavin "pout" nampak comel? If i could have a face like him, im sure there will be a lot of girls who will find me attractive. hahaha. tp muka mcm sekarang pun sudah dpt org comel kan? kira bersyukur la. haha merepek.

uuuuu, baby please dont go,
If you leave me now, youll take away the biggest part of me
uuuuu, baby please dont go.

Unlike most people who thinks A Walk To Remember or Notebook as their favourite romantic movie, i prefer A Lot Like Love Or He's Just That Into You.What's yours?

The One With The Tribute To The King Of Pop

2009-07-11T14:19:00.003+08:00

To be honest , i am not really a big fan of MJ. Most probably because i wasn't born during his era. However , when i read his story through the newspaper , i cant help but to feel left out that i can't watch his funeral memorial. Things that u just cant deny about MJ is the fact that he's a star , the fact that he's a legend , and u definitely cant deny the fact that he's the King Of Pop. Its like trying to deny the fact that Megan Fox is hot.

His Music and Legacy will live on Forever. RIP Michael Jackson.

"A major strand of our cultural DNA has left us. RIP MJ. I think we'll mourn his loss as well as the loss of ourselves as children listening to Thriller on the record player."

John Mayer

The One With The Safest Place To Hide

2009-07-05T04:07:00.003+08:00

It sure feels great to be home. oh, home sweet home.

I have a secret. I think i love Joey , Chandler, Ross, Monica , Rachel And Phoebe more than i love most of my friend. And yes i do mean it. You can say that i love to be in my fantasy world. So what? Reality's hurt. In my fantasy world, im already the king of my kingdom. okay ini melebih lebih tipunya.

I promised myself to write 3 post when i got home on weekend, but i ended up going out til 3 am today, so yes, dah takde mood. dah la this post pun mcm pelik. tapi takde lah pelik sgt. yg pelik ialah kalau perempuan main ragbi. maafkan saya kalau lawak ini berunsur sexist. saya tak bermaksud.

Bercakap pasal ragbi, teringat tentang Paris Hilton. A few weeks ago, one of her old song is played on MTV. The title is Nothing In This World. As weird as it may sound,but i love the video. Okay not that weird because peoplel know i like Paris. haha. And no, i dont love that video because she's hot in that video. (I would say that for the "Stars Are Blind" video tho. :P) The reason why i like the video is because it teaches us something. Because it tells us that we must dare to dream. True, sometimes a dreamer is a loser but how do u achieve something when u dont start to dream about it. Like Wayne Rooney once said he will ask the kit man before each game which shirt are they gonna wear for the game. Why? Because he wanted to dream about scoring and how to celebrate his goal when he sleeps before every game.

So ive decided that i will not stop dreaming about Paris Hilton move to the house next to mine. Gila cool kalau kami berjiran. Tapi nak ke dia duduk Ampang? but thats not the real question.The real question is, why does Rugby reminded me of Paris Hilton?

I will write something that is less nonsense on the next post. I promise i will.

The One With The Cheese Butter Naan

2009-06-21T01:58:00.005+08:00

Benda yang aku paling pantang ialah bila orang menelefon mengajak keluar dan kata mereka akan sampai lagi 10 minit. I hate those kind of surprises. Kalau mahu mengajak Syahmi keluar , sila inform sekurang kurangnya 40 minit sebelumnya. Ini kerana dia mempunyai habit yang pelik. Dia perlu mandi sebelum keluar rumah. Okay bukan lah perlu, tp dia prefer untuk mandi sebelum keluar rumah dan Syahmi bersiap lama macam perempuan. Opps, pembetulan. Dia siap lebih lama dari perempuan sebenarnya. //hihi. Tapi jangan tanya " u kena pakai make up ke? " kerana itu soalan bodoh dan jawapan nya tidak.

I'm leaving in a week time. Where to? i'd prefer not to tell the world about this because i dont think its important. And i dont feel like sharing. Yes, Syahmi is very secretive. And no i am not ready to leave. I dont care if i dont have a productive life when im at home. I dont care if i wake up at 1pm everyday. I dont care if people want to say that i have no life. Im just not ready to leave. And i dont even care if u're laughing at this post because you think Syahmi is weak for being scared. Aku kisah sebenarnya apa kau rasa . heh.

Sudah lah, Post ini takde motif. Aku tak tahu kenapa post ni berbunyi seperti aku sedang marah. Mungkin sebab tengah lapar. Roslyn, aku tak suka engkau sebab memperkenalkan cheese butter naan. Buat aku mengidam mcm org mengandung. Tak , aku tak mengandung. Yang mengandung tu Gisele Bundchen. And no, itu bukan anak aku. sedih kan?

The One Where He Has A Crush On Anna Kournikova

2009-06-15T00:21:00.006+08:00

tagged by Natasha

1. Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get KISSED?
Cheek? Quite a classic answer eh?

2. How did you feel when you woke up this MORNING?
Normal

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo WITH?
Syafeeq Rahim and Aimi Syamimi

4. Would you consider yourself SPOILED?
I don’t think so.

5. Will you ever donate BLOOD?
why not?

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite SEX?
tak, aku sexist. haha.

7. Do you want someone to be DEAD?
no

8. What does your last text message SAY?
No problemo.

9. What are you thinking about right NOW?
Tomorrow's plan

10. Do you want someone to be with you right NOW?
Yes please.

11. What was the time you went to bed last NIGHT?
4 or 5 am?

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing NOW?
Suria KLCC

13. Is someone on your mind right NOW?
Yeap

14. Who was the last person who text YOU?
Syafiq K

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz…
1. Roslyn Ruslan
2. Sarah Zetty
3. Rabieka Aliya
4. Saarah Jasmine
5. Triple H
6. Ben Affleck
7. Ted Mosby
8. Anna Kournikova
9. Ashton Kutcher
10. Rangga

15. Who is no.2 having relationship WITH?
She's single and available. Nak nombor bgtau.

16. Is no.3 a male or a FEMALE?
Female.

17. If no.7 and no.1 get TOGETHER, would it be a GOOD?
yes, they should be together. Hi no 1 , have u met Ted?

18. What is no.1 STUDYING?
Architecture. and The art of lying. Yes, ill not forget that no. 1

19. When was the last time you chatted with THEM?
saya selalu berskype dgn anna kournikova je

20. Is no.4 SINGLE?
Yes she is.

21. Say something about no.2
I always like her enthusiasm and she can surprise you. So do not underestimate her no matter how short she is. haha

22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being TOGETHER?
oh boleh boleh. then Jennifer Garner would be single again :D

23. Describe no.9.
I think he's a great actor.

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 FIGHT?
I will join them. Or i can just ignore them and ill fight with no 5.

25. Do you like no.8?
Oh sangat. Saya menyimpan perasaan kepada dia.

Saya lebih selalu menyebut perkataan bitch daripada " hai, kau apa khabar?" .Apa nak jadi pun tak tahu lah

The One Where He Wish He Works As A Travel Agent

2009-06-11T23:22:00.004+08:00

I am positive now that there will be no Bali. Its frustrating. Maybe I should change the " Bali Baby!! " folder to " Bali Babi " and put the picture of a pig there. Doesnt make sense and no I dont blame babi for this. Not even a swine flu because i didnt plan to go to Mexico. I guess anything that happens in Mexico will stay that way. Err, lari topik.

I may have to blame on myself in this. Because i think i bring bad luck. Well no, im not being negative but its scarily true. And this is not the first time. There was a planned to go to Port Dickson, Genting, Bali too , and oh even to Singapore. Whenever I wanna go for holiday there will be one who are involves with exam, the one who have a go cart race , one who have to balik kampung , or one who doesnt like the place i wanna go so refused to join. Its like a curse. Its a curse so i cant go for a holiday?

I guess there wont be any holidays for me this year. I think i should be someone who works in something that related to travel agency one day so i can go for a holiday. Because if i still cant go for a holiday when im working in a travel agency , then i really don't know what to say.

The One With The Movie's Quote

2009-06-10T17:19:00.003+08:00

I like to think myself as a man with principle. Maybe because the fact that i dont usually got influenced to do something just because i want to fit in with certain people. I know , it sounds like i complimented myself . And maybe I did. And i dont think its wrong for u to compliment yourself. Not because u want to brag about what u have or what u got, but compliment your ownself just to make u feel good about yourself. Sebab kalau kita tak puji diri sendiri , siapa lagi nak puji kan? haha yes, i often say that. That's why i always tell everyone that i am good looking. hahaha ( for the record, i dont think i am one because if i am good looking, Jennifer Garner wouldn't have married Ben Affleck , David Beckham wouldn't be a model for Calvin Klein and Paris Hilton wouldn't have made a sex tape with Rick Solomon) tapi itu cerita lain sebenarnya.

Anyway, i love to pick up quote's from movies and dramas. Sometimes i did used it in my daily conversation if you noticed. And some quote made me think. I love quotes that made me thinking.

I like it when Oliver says "Guess when i'm an old men, i'll never have to wonder "what if" '' , and when Joy Mcnally says " ill bet on you" after Jack Fuller says " no one will put a bet on me " .I also like Neil Jones's theory about people who get married are insecure. And i always think "Handle? I can handle it. Handle is my middle name. Well, actually its the middle part of my first name." , said by Chandler is genius-ly funny. And the recent quote which i like is a quote that i think inspired me in a way.

"Life is a climb but the view is great" . No , i didnt watch Hannah Montana the movie. i heard this quote from a friend of mine....

okay fine. i did watched it. But in my defence , i was forced by 4 other woman to watch it. and there is only 2 guy that day. So yeah, majority win.

Seriously, i shouldnt have mentioned bout watching this movie. Okay bye. I wanna watch Terminator .... or any man-ly movie.

The One With The Dinner With Her Parents

2009-06-07T04:17:00.001+08:00

Uncle : What did you order for drinks?
Yours Truly : aa..(pause) ice lemon tea uncle.

I have a funny ice lemon tea story. Which is very ironic because ice lemon tea is my favourite drink. I know i should have ordered coke because it has a shorter name.

One thing that people should know about Syahmi is , he is shy in front of new people. And when he has to deal with adult, he would be worse. People's parents to be exact. He'll be very nervous. When he's nervous, he tend to smile . Yes, he is that weird. or cute. hee Nah, it is more weird than cute.

I need a holiday. I wanna go Bali. Why Bali? Because it rhymes with baby. Whats the connection between them? Because when i return to KL from Bali i would make a folder of picture from Bali and ill name the folder " Bali Baby !! " . Brilliant isn't it?

Dont blame me if i sound a bit lame. Blame the wheather. Iye, salahkan cuaca panas. I missed the winter in Milan.

No, i've never been to Milan.

The One Where Sally Can Wait

2009-05-28T23:28:00.007+08:00

Have u watched When Harry Met Sally? I havent watch it. But a friend of mine told me that its a good movie. And this friend of mine have a request . She said " Syahmi, if u jadi director nanti, please buat remake of this movie, ". and the best part is , she said, she want it to be in malay version. So i came out with an idea. If the story is in malay, the title would be " Bila Hairi Bertemu Salimah". Yes people, this will be a big hit. and i already try to think of few quality actor to be part of this movie. As for now, i can only think of one ppl. Her name is Saarah. Shes also will play the main role in my other movie which call " IC" or identification card.

Meet Saarah Jasmine. A future model and famous actress. She's single and available ( i think ). She will be Salimah in the movie "Bila Hairi Bertemu Salimah". And not to forget , " IC " . and also will feature in lots of magazine front cover. Just wait for it. ( im suppose to make a megazine review but i suck at describing ppl )

ps ; menipu di post blog sudah menjadi habit saya. Ini tidak bagus. Perlu dihentikan.

The One Where Kate Winslet Wannabe Got Punk'd

2009-05-25T01:13:00.004+08:00

Roslyn Ruslan says:
I got my converse
But, not converse.
Its actually Avia.
Van's punya adik.
ahhaha
actually memang pun.
and it's pink
memang tepat bagi saya
Syahmi. says
meaning u got urself an AVIA la?
Roslyn Ruslan says:
yes but...
ISH
i cakap Avia kene explain pulak how it looks like.
So I cakap la Converse dulu.
ISH
Syahmi. says:
oo
meaning u beli converse la?
Roslyn Ruslan says:
nooo
i beli AVIA
BABI LA
Syahmi. says:
habis tu siapa yg beli vans pink?
Roslyn Ruslan says:
ya allah
I BELI AVIA
Warna pink
tapi nampak macam converse
Syahmi. says:
oo
kira u beli converse pink lah?
Roslyn Ruslan says:
tapi brand nya Avia.
Converse dah tak de the one I wanted =(
Syahmi. says:
u ni
ckp la betul betul
u beli converse ke vans?
Roslyn Ruslan says:
ahhahahha
AVIA AVIA AVIA
Syahmi. says :
oh
bentuk dia mcm vans? adik converse?
Roslyn Ruslan says:
bentuk macam converse.
tapi the brand is memang van's.
like Roxy and Quiksilver
Syahmi. says:
oh
kira u beli kasut from avia and roxy too?
Roslyn Ruslan says:
-_-
Syahmi. says:
apa ni
tak faham la
Roslyn Ruslan says:
=((
i'll explain to u face-to-face
Syahmi. says:
no
i think i faham
u beli kasut at converse and bought something from roxy too?
Roslyn Ruslan says:
No
i bought avias
Syahmi. says:
then siapa yg beli roxy?
Roslyn Ruslan says:
no one did.
Syahmi. says:
tp tadi u ckp?
ke i salah faham?
Roslyn Ruslan says:
ignore that, sayang oi
Syahmi. says:
u beli that shoes from quicksilver la? kasut dia mcm avia pink? is it?
Roslyn Ruslan says:
okay
I beli kasut AVIA.
No quiksilver
no roxy
no converse
Syahmi. says:
Okay
u beli kasut Avia
and a pink vans shoes?
Roslyn Ruslan says:
no VANS
NO
Syahmi. says:
ooo
habis tu siapa yg beli pink converse?
Roslyn Ruslan says:
SAYA BELI PINK AVIAS. fullstop
Syahmi. says:
oo
dah faham
u beli pink avias
kan?
Roslyn Ruslan says:
yes yes
u catch on FAST
Syahmi. says:
oh
u do know i mmg faham from the beginning kan?
Roslyn Ruslan says:
-_-
fucking hell

//hihi. Roslyn ditipu oleh saya. Saya sangat suka hati. Sekian terima kasih.

The One With The Story Of A Gangster

2009-05-23T23:16:00.009+08:00

This is a story of Miss Roslyn Ruslan.

Last September, I was introduced to her. We were introduce by Rabieka Aliya during dinner at Chillis. There were 7 guys and just 2 girls on that dinner. So i was thinking to myself, there is no chances that this girl(Roslyn) will even have a tiny interest on me since there are 6 other hot bachelor around. Not that im not hot, but i was wearing my spectacles on that night. ( great excuse Syahmi, way to go ) As expected, she didnt. But she thinks one of the 7 guys is cute. I feel so frustrated. Being cute suppose to be my thing.

However, i was still trying to impress this girl. And genius Syahmi thought a simple statement like " oh i have a friend whos in the same school as you " would do the trick. But no. It made me look lame. So this girl talk to every other guy except me. So I said to myself, enough Syahmi,u've missed ur chances and im not gonna see her again after tonight.

But i was wrong. I was told that she would come to my prom. I was so happy that i would get my 2nd chance to impress her. But no, i was then disappointed with the fact that she got a date for prom and what makes it become more worse was , she didnt even talk to me when she saw me. She did talk to someone she just met, but did she talk to me? NO. Yes, she didnt talk me. I felt so down that night. Prom is no longer special. The fact that ive been ignored by her killed my spirit. Luckily i won the Best Dressed that night. It did cheer me up a little. ( hahaha saja je nk bgtau)

See how she was flirting with everyone else but me.

and i was left alone that night. (with my best dressed crown)

So now, im so sure that she'll never like me back. Yes, i did use the word NEVER. Im no longer interested in trying to impress her. I gave up. Love hurts, thats what i told myself. But right after i told myself that, suddenly she asked me to teman her to edu fair. I agreed bcos im gonna give herself a chance to realize how special I am. She came with her friend . A chinese looking girl name Aween. But i was obviously not really give my attention to Aween bcos im only interested in Roslyn.The day went well. Although she was trying hard to hide her feeling, i can sense that she has a thing for me. But it didnt last. The day went well until this ABANG MALAM IN THE SHADOW showed up. Then Roslyn told us how shes in love with ABANG MALAM IN THE SHADOW. I was extremely sad when she said that. Luckily, Aween was there. She's the one who actually layan me. Unlike some people who is more interested in this one abang , who is apparently engaged but she didnt give a damn about it. "Ala, tunang je, belum kahwin", she said. I then realized that Aween is a better choice for me. So basically, that is How I Met My Aween.

ps: this story was inspired by the film Romeo and Juliet and the famous sitcom How I Met Your Mother. And when i said there were 6 other hot bachelor during the dinner, i didnt really mean it. I lied just bcos i want this story to become more interesting than Leonardo's Romeo and Juliet.

The One With The Question With No Answer

2009-05-08T21:29:00.004+08:00

I always wonder whether people will miss me when i am not "here" anymore. Wonder whether there will be people who will show up to my funeral. And wonder whether there will be anyone , or at least ONE person who will feel sad about this.

I guess ill never know the answer. Its like the question Chandler asked,
"You ever wonder which is worse, you know; going through labor or getting kicked in the nuts?"
Another one of life's great, unanswerable questions.

If I die tonight
Would you feel the loss?
Tomorrow would you dial
My number by accident
Then suddenly... pause?
If I die tonight
What would happen to her
How long would it take
Before she kissed another man?
God damn
At fast food joints
Would she still order
The same combo meal for two?
Things I wish I knew
'Too Phat - If I Die Tonight'

The One With The Caribbean's Carlito And Double Knee Backbreaker

2009-04-27T19:46:00.008+08:00

I kind of realized that maybe I'm quite sensitive for a guy. Ah, i was just being Syahmi. Its not good. I should learn how to hide few things sometimes. I forgot that being yourself doesnt always win people's heart. Trying to be COOL on the other hand is more safe. Society loves cool people. So try to be one.

I used to think that i'm too cool to care. But i was wrong i guess. In this world, u cant just try to be yourself. You should try to fit in instead.

Sometimes i think i complain too much. Sometimes I think I complain because I don't have anything to complain about.

The One With The Amazing Come Back

2009-04-26T02:39:00.002+08:00

Its true, Spurs did lead us 2 - 0 on first half. But seriously, doubting Man Utd should be the last thing that you should do. We scored 5 on second half. Twice from Rooney , twice from Ronaldo and one from Berbatov who scored against his old club. And to Liverpool fans, if u really think you can win the title race this year, pray harder :) . I know its too early and i don't want to sound so confident because i dont want people to laugh at me if we did not won the league title this year, but i was just so happy with the result. It was fucking amazing. wahaa. *okay sikit sikit excited sudah*

Glory Glory Man United

The One Where He Wish Life Would Be Easier

2009-04-20T20:17:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I think I need to get away,
Pack all my things,
Get on a plane,
Head off alone one summer day,
Never look back at the town i called home,
maybe visit California,
I hear its nice there in the summer,
but all the waves and coastline and sunset shores would just make me miss you more

The One With The Manly Voice

2009-04-20T17:54:00.003+08:00

I realised ive been very lazy to update my blog. To be honest, its not because i dont want to, but i just dont have any idea what to write about. Because i think it is stupid to write about how i usually woke up at 1 or 2 pm everyday and slept at 6 or 7 am. Its suppose to be my 2009 resolution to jog every morning since i will have a lot of free time. But it didnt really work out. Not even once. And yes, im still trying hard to gain my weight. Trust me i did. But no, it didnt happened too. haha.

Oh future. I hate it when people ask me to decide about my future. Truth been told, i dont even know what i wanna do in future, what i really want to be. I only know that i really want to be rich. I know, sounds typical , but i have to be rich to support my luxurious life in future. aha. yes, i will have a luxurious life. :D. keep on dreaming Syahmi. Thats what u do best.

I think my voice sounds funny thru the phone. I need to change my voice. I need a macho voice. ahaha.

The One With The Test

2009-04-10T14:55:00.005+08:00

I'm always a negative person. Never trust me if i say ill become more positive because i wont. What can I say, life's a bitch baby. haha. no no, dont insult "life" syahmi. aha.

Its funny how people tend to listen to quote like "friends forever" or "if its meant to be,it will be " when i'd rather believe in "nothing last forever" . Its not that i dont want it to last forever , but i need a proof. Proof to me than it can last so ill believe in those things. And you know how i hate the so called famous quote "if its meant to be , it will be". They give us hope to believe in something. Why dont they ask us to stop hoping,and try harder instead.

Its lame how i try to update my blog and ended up post something emo-ish. Im not in the emo mood really, but i just feel like update something and another emo post came out from me. haha. Bodoh la. I need to listen to more happy song from now. Ill stop listen Dear Juliet's and listen to Soulja Boy's instead. haha . Okay i better stop here.

oh btw, i just finished the oc marathon for season 1 and while watching , theres this one song which called Cannonball by Damien Rice which i used to like a lot ( and yes, i discovered bout the existance of that song from this show btw ) . So i decided to post the video here. hehe.

*= I'm Scared
#= Why?
*= Because once you get what you want, that’s when you've got something to lose

The One Where He Could Not Tell What Happened In Mexico

2009-04-03T14:40:00.004+08:00

Syahmi : Hey you know what, what happens in Mexico stays in Mexico.
Stranger: What happens in Mexico?
Syahmi : I don't know because it stays there! That's why we must go.

I think reading quotes is fun. Im lame. This holiday has turned me to be lame and more lame each days. ( yes Syahmi, blame the holiday, brilliant )

Anyway, have i told you that i would love to have Marissa Cooper as my girlfriend? haha I think i did. And yes, I have a crush on Marissa Cooper. No, not Mischa Barton, Marissa Cooper. Yes, im in love with a character in The OC. Okay it really sounds stupid now ( it seriously sounds better in my head) haha. but who cares.im gonna write bout it anyways.

How can i not like her? Shes caring , understanding and would be there for her boyfriend when he needs her. And plus , shes hot. :) aha. I know shes a bit vulnerable , but from what ive learn in life( gaya cakap mcm dah hidup lama je , haha) , if you are ready to show ur vulnerable side to ur partner,it shows how you really love her or him . Why? Ask me personally. Malas nak explain here. hahaha.

And if u ask did i find my own Marissa Cooper . Sadly, i have to say no. But seriously, who needs Marissa Cooper if i have my own version of Paris Hilton? haha Shes gonna kill me if she knows i compared her to Paris Hilton. But why would i be scared ? Shes not that strong tho. :P ( good thing that she doesnt read blogs that much ) hahaha

Okay enough with the OC. Ive to do something. Its either playing football , work out ,watching wrestling or any manly stuff to do. Ive to keep it balance. Balance is good ,right? haha .

R: Sometimes I think you talk just to make sounds.
S: Well, sometimes I do.

The One Where All The Girls Are Standing In The Line For The Bathroom

2009-03-22T18:35:00.008+08:00

Sunburst was GREAT. Well obviously it could have been better if the artist who performed on stage also includes band or singer that I like. But still, it was GREAT. N.E.R.D was great. The others too.

The concert supposedly starts at 2pm. But WE , ( we as in Syahmi , Aween & Roslyn ) arrived at Bukit Kiara Equestrian & Country Resort at 7 . We decided to have our lunch at IKEA before we're heading to the concert. Why? sebab kami ada life. lunch pun dkt IKEA. haha .

You know whats funny? While watching N.E.R.D performed on stage, i realised that i miss Limp Bizkit. I know thats weird bcos there is obviously no connection between N.E.R.D and Limp Bizkit. But i dont know. I wish Limp Bizkit would come for the next Sunburst next year. haha padahal Limp Bizkit macam dah takde je sekarang. And as for artist who will represent RnB and Hip Hop music, I would love to see Bow Wow or Nelly.haha Okay done with crapping Syahmi.

Some picture from SunBurst :

Aween , Roslyn & Julia

The One Where He Knows That He's Not Jack Fuller

2009-03-21T02:05:00.002+08:00

Don't put your bet on Syahmi , he'll disappoint you.

and yes, i'm started to freak out about the future.

Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Of a better life

I've got no master plan to help me out
Or make me stand up for
All the things that I really want
You had me too afraid to ask
And as I look ahead of me
I cry and pray for sanity

The One Where He's Terrified

2009-03-17T01:59:00.004+08:00

I wonder what the future holds for me, it's terrifying honestly.
So I guess I'll just wait and see ,if I survive.
And this is the last summer we'll have all to ourselves,
Before next year when we have to pack and move on out.
No matter what happens, I'll miss the friends I've made in this town.
And I wish that time would just slow down.

And what makes this even harder is how it involves two person, or more actually. But ive to be honest that for now , i am only focus on this one person. And no, Syahmi is not ready for it. And he wish, the time would just slow down.

The One Where He Failed Everyone, Again.

2009-03-15T00:28:00.005+08:00

Yes, I fucking failed myself. I failed my parents. I ruined my fucking future. I am fucking hopeless

If this is what you guys want to know , ive made it fucking clear.
So I would fucking appreciate if u stop asking me bout my fucking results because it is fucking annoying.

Thank You.

Why Is Everything So Hard
I Dont Think That I Can Deal With The Things You Said
It Just Wont Go Away
I Used To Think That I Was Strong
I Think The Day It All Went Wrong
I Think I Need A Miracle To Make It Through

The One Where He Is Chilling Like The Ice Cream Filling

2009-03-11T00:59:00.008+08:00

Jason Mraz's concert was awesome possum. Yes Sarah, i used ur word to describe my feeling about that concert. aha. But yeah, the concert was great. It was my first time going to concert btw, and i had a lot of fun. Tho i kinda wish the concert was longer, but it was okay. It was freaking worth it

I should have revised all of his songs before going to the concert, so that i can sing along in all the song he sang. But no, i forgot to do it. But luckily he did sang songs that i know like You and I Both , Geek In The Pink , Make It Mine , I''m Yours of course and my favourite track, Beautiful Mess and a few others. Tapi dia tak nyanyi lagu I'll Do Anything. :( sedih.haha

So yes, Jason Mraz's concert was superb. He is amazing. A performer and entertainer. He's cool yaw !! and i like it when he said " Dont Let Your Mind Stop You From Having Fun" or something like that. Its very inspiring. aha. and oh , i love If It Kills Me.

Next Concert ; Sunburst ( tapi kenapa takde artis best ? ) haih.

Sarah yang excited !

And btw, this is Aween :]

Well all I really wanna do is to love you

A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

The One With The Second Job

2009-03-06T18:47:00.004+08:00

For those who might not know, im no longer working in Tod's. And no, i wasnt get fired or i quit. It just that they no longer need a part timer and no, its not the polite way to say " You're Fired" to me because my collegue , Saarah also no longer working there for the same reason. So u cant expect them to fire Saarah, who is an amazing worker there. Really, she started working since December but she looked like a pro to me.

Anyway, after i finished working at Tod's , i got another job which is an examination attendant at UIA. I know the job sounds so boring. But if you just sit, sms-ing, playing with games from your handphone, and sometimes 'tertidur' and got paid rm 5 an hour or Rm 40 a day, it is freaking worth it right? haha

So yeah, that is my 2nd job and i worked from 23 Feb - 4 March. And now i am again, jobless. haha im still not sure whether i want to look for a new job or anything. I need to get some rest for awhile.

Ill update about Jason Mraz's Concert once i got the picture. And no, im not ready for SPM's result to come out.

The One Where He Wish That It Won't Fade

2009-02-22T03:40:00.000+08:00

Its a nice feeling. A very nice feeling. But i cant help but to feel worry about it. Because I really dont want it to fade.

But will it fades anyway? Its too early to talk about the future. But I hope it wont. I really want the feeling to stay.

You're my shooting star
don't fade away
And we've got one more night
so please say you'll stay

please don't fall asleep
'Cause I'm afraid that this dream
could turn into a nightmare,
if I wake up tomorrow and you're not there

The One Where He Hates Costa Rica

2009-02-11T13:33:00.003+08:00

It is because rabieka will be leaving to Costa Rica tomorrow. Imagine if there is no Costa Rica, there is STILL possibilities for her to stay. Kan?

Okay that sounds ridiculous. But I hate it. I really wish you didn’t have to go. Its freaking one year. Kalau seminggu dua takpe lah jugak. A lot of things might happen in a year time. I’m very afraid that things will change. Siapa nak chat at msn with me malam- malam? Who am I going to talk to when I have a problem? Mak siapa lagi nak belanja I makan? Okay itu memang cerita lain.

But only stupid people will reject such an opportunity kan? A year in Costa Rica, siapa tak nak. And for hoping you to say no that offer because Syahmi don’t want you to go lagi lah mengarut. haha. So good luck Becka, and yes, don’t worry too much. I’m sure you’ll do great. I really hope nothing will change, and we will still be as close when you get back here in a year time. I really am gonna miss you. And I know ive said it before , but I really I want to thank you for everything. I really don’t know how dull my life would be kalau kita tak jadi close friend last year. So yes, thank you so much,

Take care Rabieka Aliya Ruslan.
Good Luck !!

You'll never be that far from me
So don't say goodbye 'cause
You'll never be that far from me
I'm telling myself

You were there when I needed a friend
Thank you thank you
I never told you how much that meant
Gotta thank you thank you

The One With The First People To Leave

2009-02-04T23:04:00.003+08:00

I hate it when people are leaving . Especially those who im really close to. ye lah , kalau musuh aku peduli apa kan? haha. And this is only the first person. There will be a lot more i suppose. I know sounds dramatic bcos shes leaving for a month only , but thats not the point. The point is, why does people leave. Its not fair. The plan was suppose to be me who left Malaysia and moved to California and not telling anyone bout it. But now, people are leaving, and im still stuck in Malaysia.

Tapi dah banyak mengarut sebenarnya. Roslyn is leaving this friday. Saya tidak suka. Kerana saya tidak suka orang meninggalkan saya. Tapi nak buat mcm mana. sudah tiada pilihan. I really wish u dont have to go roslyn :(.

To Roslyn, i am going to miss you. Have fun bina-ing RUMAH PAPAN, yes i know you are not going to read this aween, but roslyn is going to build a rumah papan and not rumah batu, okay? haha. Take care alright. And oh, remember,whenever you feel sad, look at the necklace i gave you , and smile :D.

BALIK CEPAT !!!

And oh btw, did i tell u that i hate Costa Rica?. Why ? Ill write bout it next week.

The One Where He Lost It

2009-02-02T11:29:00.002+08:00

I think Ive Lost One Ability Which I Always Thought I'm Good At.

I think ive lost my ability to hide my feeling especially when i'm not in the mood or i'm sad bcos people tend to notice it. haih. I know ive lost it for quite a while but i need it back, i need to learn to hide my emotion back.

I'm A Nightmare, A disaster ; I'm A Lost Cause, Not A Hero

The One Where Everybody Lie

2009-02-01T10:03:00.003+08:00

People Say A Perfect Life, A Life Without Any Problem
Would Not Be Fun, Would Be Boring

How Did They Know When They Never Actually Experienced It?

I'm sorry I Did Not Mean , To Hurt My Little Girl
Its Beyond Me, I Cannot Carry The Weight Of A Heavy World
So Goodnight, Hope That Things Work Out Alright
-Maroon 5 ; Goodnight Goodnight.

The One With The Down-To- Earth Post

2009-01-23T19:08:00.003+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

wohoo, scary. Except for the im confident part, i think MOST of it are true. I guess. Scary.

The One Where He Listened Too Much Of MCR's Song

2009-01-23T02:41:00.003+08:00

Okay first of all, this post is nothing to do with My Chemical Romance. I just wrote that because for some reason , i feel a bit emo now. Okay maybe not a bit. Just Emo? heh. Takde kena mengena dgn MCR? adalah. MCR tu bukan emo ke haa? haha.

Yes, you may say, typical. But i dont know. I just realised that i'm not cool , which to be honest kinda bothering me the whole day. Stupid. And NO , you poser , who apparently used to be my classmate, you're not cool. You definitely not. Stop thinking that you are because it is fcking annoying. Define Cool? I don't do things that cool people did. I don't know how to play foosball and pool , and oh by i don't know i mean, i'm not good at it lah. I never punched a face. haha yeah, i really want to punch someone face. And yes, i do have a few of name in mind. haha. I never go to a club. I know nightclub , is not me, but i just want to have the experienced, ok? I don't know how to play a music instrument. I can't sing. I'm not famous. I don't have a lot of friends. I'm not good at making conversation. I'm not funny. I cant speak in spanish and french. I'm not handsome ( kenapa orang handsome cool? tah la, saya pun tak tahu kenapa ) And yes, i still can't scored a goal from 70 yards like beckham did. haih. And a lot of other things i guess.

No , its not that I REALLY WANT TO BE COOL . No. I just wish that i hv something to be proud of. I'm not special . haih. and i hate it when people think me as a good boy, and by good boy they were refering to those sissy boy. Well guess what, you made a wrong mistake. A fucking big mistakes. I love it when people think that i'm nice , but please, respect me. Bcos im not nice, im actually very rebel. So please, stop irritate me.

And pls save ur sarcastic comment about this post, because thats the last thing i need now. And in case you were wondering why am i sounds so emo, dont ask, bcos , I Really Don't Know Why. Typical? haih..

The One Where Coffee Bean Serve The Best Coffee

2009-01-23T02:32:00.004+08:00

You want to drink the best coffee? Go to Mont Kiara's Coffee Bean, because from what i heard, there is this one girl who served the best coffee EVER. haha. And for the single guy out there, besides the good coffee, you can also meet the hottest girl in Mont Kiara so far. And her name is Shafira. Tgk shaf, i promote you habis habis ni. haha. So yes, people, let us go to Mont Kiara and drink coffee there okay? :D

The One With The Tod's New Staff

2009-01-15T22:18:00.002+08:00

I don't know if you have heard about it or not, but yes currently im working part time at Tod's . And you ask me how was it? oh . ia penat macam neraka. haha sangat lain bunyinya. Tired like hell , really. But its working, what do i expect? kalau tak nak penat tidur dirumah la kan? haha

I already work there for 3 days and so far it was okay except for the tired part. So far i can say that it was okay. And we dont really get a lot of customer since all the stuff there are freakishly expensive. haha . But it was fun since most of the customer are foreigner and freaking rich people. And yes, maybe i sound a bit jakun here, but i do feel A BIT amazed when this one guy came and pay for his new shoes which cost him Rm3000 or something with cash. Cash people. haha

In case ure wondering, i have to work for 10 hours OR 12 hours per day. Yes that long people. haha luckily so far i only work in shift meaning , i have to work for 10 hours je. I wonder how tired will it be if working for the freaking 12 hours? haish. haha. So i think this is it for now. and oh do come and visit me at klcc okay? bcos working there is quite boring bcos no entertainment really. haha so i do get excited if i saw any familiar faces there. haha im that bored people :P.

The One Where I Got To Say " Its 3 - 0 baby"

2009-01-15T18:51:00.004+08:00

Yes, we trashed the hell out of Chelsea. And yes, it was 3 - 0 baby. haha

Thanx to Vidic, Rooney and Berbatov. And of course , Giggsy, man of the match performanced.

And yet we still got a game in hand. And yes , we won again against Wigan last night.

We sure will be on top again.

Ill update bout my work at Tod's later. Probably malam ni. Sabar ye?

Glory Glory Man United.

The One Where Rabieka Can Rap

2009-01-10T00:02:00.007+08:00

7th January 2009

I've said it once and i will say it again. KARAOKE BEST GILA NAK MAMPUS. haha

okay over. But seriously, it was FUUUUNNN!!!

The idea of going to karaoke was planned since , err i cant remember when , but dah lamaaa laaa. And finally we did find the suitable time.But before that , Rabieka said that she probably couldnt make it. But I told her she has to be there as well since she's like the glue that stick the 7 of us together. ahah. and so me, Naim and Roslyn kinda forced her to go bcos this could be the last time we all hang out together before she leaves. and yes she did make it.

and no, 3 hours and 20 minutes of karaoke is not enough. Told you we have to arrive there at 11. Kalau tak boleh karaoke 4 jam. ish. haha. Poor aryl , he wanted to sing the yesterday song by the beatles so bad but since we were running out of time, he dont get the chances to sing it. takpe lah , nnt aku belanja kau cd karaoke the beatles aryl , kau nyanyi dkt rumah puas - puas ye?.haha

We started with a slow , jiwang , 90s songs like Shape Of My Heart , My Baby You , Everyday I Love You and yes, thanx to me, we sang all those jiwang song. haha then we ended up singing various type of song. From Shape Of My Heart to Rollin , I Wanna Spend My Time Loving You to The Reason , Wannabe to Zombie ( eh it rhymes? ) haha . Basically we sang various type of song genre. And yes we had A LOT OF FUN. Especially when we sang Bye Bye Bye , Only One , Zombie , For You I Will and nah , i cant decide which. Semuanya seronoklah :D. haha and oh did i told you Rabieka can rap? yeah , she raps for Eminem's Mockingbird. haha

And after the 3 hours of karaoke-ing, which was not enough btw, we went to watch YES MAN. Yes, ive watched the movie before but since the others want to watch that movie , so terpaksalah. But i think its quite worth it lah. Bcos the movie was good. Jim carey was damn funny in that. And Zooey Deschanel is cuuute :D. hehe. Okay enough talking and here are some pictures. :)

Backstreets Back Alrite ? haha

Rabieka & Roslyn

PEACE !! :D

PS ; Rakan - rakanku, Jom lah pergi karaoke lagi :(

The One With The Joey's Magic Trick

2009-01-06T20:07:00.003+08:00

Have I told you how much I love the friends tv show? Oh I did? and it annoyed you that i kept repeating the same question eh? haha. okay.

How can i not like the show? The show is freakishly hilarious and it teaches us how to appreciate our friends. I always wish that i have a friend like Joey , Chandler , Ross , Rachel , Monica and Phoebe. I kinda regret that i dont watch this show earlier because i want to feel what the other friends fan felt when the show is over. I know it was a sad feeling. I still feel sad whenever i watched the last episode of friends. Especially when Joey and Chandler said goodbye to each other. The strong bonding between the 6 of them make me love them. I know this may sounds silly but i kinda think that I love these 6 people more than i love most of my friend.haha.

In case you are wondering why do I love this show so much, i think this few videos can explain to you why.

I'll be there for you. Cos you're there for me too.

The One With The Beginning Of A New Era

2009-01-01T03:35:00.003+08:00

Ye , mmg saya saja memilih tajuk yg poyo. kenapa? ada masalah? peduli apa saya. hahaha ( gelak orang jahat )

Dah 2009 pun kan. Cepat sungguh waktu berlalu. Pejam celik pejam celik dah setahun. Oh sebelum itu, saya rasa saya ingin menyeimbangkan penulisan bahasa melayu dan bahasa inggeris di blog ini. mengapa? tah saje jee. tp tgk lah, saya akan menulis dalam sesuatu bahasa itu, mengikut mood saya lah. haha boleh pulak ikut mood kan. ala betul la ikut mood , takkan ikut kanan jika memotong pulak.. tak lawak pun sebenarnya.

ok dah jauh menyimpang. balik semula cerita tahun baru. Matlamat tahun baru mestilah nak menjadikan tahun ini tahun terbaik. haha. sangat cliche ayat itu. Dah la selalunya tak pernah terjadi pun. Tunggu je lah penghujung tahun ini saya akan mengeluarkan post post emo yg mengutuk ngutuk 2009.haha tapi harap harap tidak lah. Biar lah 2009 jadi tahun best. Best mcm tempe. Tapi tempe takde lah best sangat. Twisties lagi best. oh sebut pasal twisties, ramai yg ckp nk belanja saya twisties tapi tak tunaikan lagi. okay ni mmg cerita lain.

Cakap pasal tahun baru semua org mesti ada azam baru eh. Azam saya masa tahun 2008 pun tak tercapai lagi. Azam 2008 ialah untuk membeli belah di Tesco Ampang. Okay mmg la masa tu ckp nak buat lawak je. Tp yg peliknya , sampai sekarang tak sampai lagi tesco ampang. Kenapa? haa yang tu yang kita tak tahu tu. Tapi 2009 tak tahu lah nak apa. Oh dah tau. Saya nak tambahkan berat badan dan akan mulakan rutin bersenam sbb saya nak ada badan yg cantik mcm Jehan Miskin ataupun Randy Orton. haha kalau tak kenal sila google. Payah pula nak letak gmbar dkt sini. tapi itu cita2 je. Nnt tengok2 saya masih lagi kurus. Tak best lah. Nak makan byk cuti ni.

To Do List 2009

Gain weight
Dapatkan kerja
HOLIDAY HOLIDAY. nak pergi mana2 la yang best.
Cari girlfriend? haha ye la tu

eh tu je kot. Hari tu macam banyak.Lupa lah. Selalu mcm tu. Banyak makan semut agaknya. Dah tu takkan nak salahkan semut?

Tapi kalau nak ikutkan saya takut juga nak masuk 2009 ni. Ye la, byk new things punya lah nnt. Dah tak sekolah pulak tu. Masuk university nnt mesti mcm lain punya. Mesti rindu pengetua SAB. Okay tak baik menipu. Rindu kawan- kawan? oo , ada la sesetengah yang akan saya rindu. Yang baik dgn saya , saya rindu la. Yang sombong dgn saya buat apa nak rindu. haha. Lagi satu nak kena buat kawan baru lagi . Ish ssh. Kalau saya friendly takpe jugak. Saya dah la confirm confirm pemalu. haha

Dah la, tak baik meleter panjang panjang. Korang pun malas nak baca. Baik korang baca novel twilight yang digilai remaja masa kini kan. Saya harap 2009 akan menjadi tahun yang baik untuk semua orang. Untuk kawan - kawan, semoga berjaya dalam apa je yg korang pilih lepas ni. Kolej ke university ke or kalau ada yang tak boleh terima takdir sekolah dah habis sampai nk masuk form 6 balik ke , good luck lah korang. Dan janganlah lupakan saya oh. keep in touch eh.

oh btw, nak bgtau ni. Contact lens saya hilang sebelah. haha tak sampai sebulan pakai dah hilang. ish. apa lah. okay dah.

Bye 2008. Hello 2009

The One With The End Of 2008

2008-12-31T21:40:00.002+08:00

So yeah , today is the last day of 2008. Hows 2008 for me ? Well i can say that 2008 had an awful start but it do have an okay-ish ending . One thing for sure, a lot of things happened to me this year. Things changed, and PEOPLE TOO. Yes, this statement is too cliche and i do think that ill write the same statement anytime soon.

SPM should be the main highlight this year. I do think it could have been a better year if not bcos of this stupid exam. heh. A stressed year , I shall say. But 2008 sure did bring a lot of impact in my life. 2008 give me a lot of memories. Good , bad and some that might changed my life forever. haha over. okay dah , malas ckp banyak.

Good Memories

Met some wonderful people this year. There are a few. But ive to thank this one girl ,who I don't think she realized how much she helped me this year. If it wasn't because of her, my 2008 could have been more dull and pathetic. heh. And oh no, i dont want to mention her name here. sbb dia suka perasan lebih.haha But again, thank you wonderful friend. To syamira asyiqin, thank you for being such a good listener and of course, a good friend. And to "Chibi Maruko" pun , thanx jugak lah.hehe And to those who been good to me this year, thank you so much.
To be part of the prom committee was a memorable moment for me. The experienced to organised such an event was priceless. And to know that the event was success, i couldnt be more happy . 19th December 2008 is no doubt one of the best night in my life. oh shit , i miss prom already. :( haha.
5 Jaya best. haa. Quoting Tan Wei Kiat " 5 Jaya is the best class, forever" . haha. I cant ask for a better class than this.
The last year of school. YAY!! haha
Tak terpilih PLKN. haha
urgh, i got a few more but dah lupa apa. haha so ni je la.

Bad Memories
Too Many To Be Listed

Memorable Conversation

-eh apa kata korang jadi perempuan for one day?
- yeah? then apa nama perempuan i?
- Kamilia Naimah
- haha. i punya?
- u jadi **** ( okay lupa apa nama )
- tak nak la. Dah alang2 jadi perempuan, bg i nama best sikit. I nak Syamira Melissa. Panggil I Mel

- Eh what is transformer?
-A device used to transfer electric energy from one circuit to another,
- oo, transformer tu bukan Optimus Prime ke?
- what the hell man

-apa azam tahun baru?
- azam tahun baru nak cari kawan nama azam

At this one restaurant in KLCC
- Eh jom la. Suruh kira la ni. Mintak bil
- eh korang bayar kan i punya dulu. My mum suruh beli ubat nyamuk jap ( I WAS JOKING . Obviously. kononnya tak nak bayar la bil tu )
-eh kenapa nak beli ubat nyamuk dkt klcc. Tggu la dkt ampang point nnt u beli. ( and she didnt get it) haha

The One With The Generation

2008-12-30T11:15:00.004+08:00

Tagged by ; Kelly

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 10 friends.
5. Everyone tagged as to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Help Me - Nick Carter.
-haha ye la tu

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
I Told You So - Boys Like Girls
- Gila

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Almost Here - Brian Mcfadden ft Delta Goodrem

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Stolen - Dashboard Confessional
- You have stolen my heart . haa boleh jugak laa. aha,

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Better In Time - Leona Lewis

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
So Long Sweet Summer - Dashboard Confessional

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Incomplete - Backstreet Boys
- eh betul.haha

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Fly Away - Nelly
- haa , ada kena mengena habis

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Hanging By A Moment - Lifehouse

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Somebody's Me - Enrique Iglesias
- Try answer this during ur exam . :D

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Kerna Ku Sayang Kamu - Dygta
- hahaha sayang ke? haa boleh laa. sayang jugak lah .

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Lips Of An Angel - Hinder
- oh oh oh oh. padahal takde kena mengena

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Boston - Augustana
- baik california lagi

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Who Needs The World - Nick Carter
- Who needs the world when i got you, switch of the sun , the star and the moon. hahaha er, true la kan?

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
In Fate's Hand - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
- dah jodoh la kira?

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Jangan Bersedih Lagi - Anuar Zain
- i doubt ppl will be that sad tho.

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
Your Call - Secondhand Serenade
- sadly , no one is interested to call me

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
My Eyes Burn - Matchbook Romance
- haha takut mata terbakar eh?

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Wait For You - Elliot Yamin
-eee , mana tau ni? haha

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Everywhere - Yellowcard
- Oh i need a vacation . So yeah.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Picture Of You - Boyzone
- I got a picture of you in my mind . tenet tenet.

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Generation - Simple Plan
- LISTEEEEENNNN !!!

Tag People
- Rabieka Aliya
- Syamira Amir
- Hazimah Cyrus
- Shafira Madina
- Natosha
- Qistina
- Err siapa siapa nak buat, buat je lah sebenarnya

The One With One Of The Best Night In My Life

2008-12-24T22:43:00.002+08:00

19th December 2008

Reasons why 19th December was great

The Prom Was Awesomely Awesome. haha
Male Best Dressed :D
It is always the best feeling when u got to prove those who doubt you that they were wrong
The lighting that night was superb. It makes u feel that you were dancing in the night club. haha
Night walk in Bukit Bintang with wonderful people. You can help to but to love it.
I am still at Bukit Bintang at 3 am.
12 people in the same hotel room ? what's not to like about it? haha
We all looked grown up. It make me feel great. :P

Possible reasons why it wasn't great

I don't have a date. *%##@*#. haha
I don't know how to dance
I don't get the chance to enjoy the food.
I'm not the Prom King. :( .hahahaha
Becka and Shafira at least found 2 hot guys. And I don't find any. haha well i know there's a lot of hot people there but ive known all of them and how do u expect me to flirt with people i already know?

But to think back, it is actually better if I don't have a date bcos i kinda free to walk and dance with whoever i want , and the light was dim when everyone was dancing so i don't think people notice that i dunno how to dance and i know i dont eat a lot but I can maintain my slim figure haha. As for the "im not the prom king" , i don't have to carry the big hamper that won by the prom king. And for the hot girls, its not like i'm going to make any move if there is any pun kan?. haha. So basically everything about 19th December was greaaat. :D

The One With The PROM - tastic

2008-12-24T21:59:00.009+08:00

Sab Prom Night 08’ was awesome posseme. In fact its better than my expectation. And I bet most of the people who came feel the same way too. Its definitely a night to remember . And the best part is we got to prove to all the people who think this event will be a disaster that they were wrong.

To The Committee

I had an amazing time working with you guys. All the stress , sacrifies, especially the money we spent to buy the handphone credit haha, and to some of the committees, tears shed by them( you know who you are haha) are totally worth it now. This prom wouldn’t be a success without you guys. And special credit to the Head Committees . She was a great leader. I don’t think we are able to organise such an event without her leadership. And yes, you deserved to be the PROM QUEEN.

To The People Who Come

Thanks for supporting us or at least for coming. And thanks for being such a wonderful crowd. I really hope all of u guys had a wonderful night. Sorry if the night wasn’t as good as you expect it to be. Special credit to those who kindly sponsored us no matter what kind of sponsor it was. Naim, Syafiq Khamis , Ifkar , Tan Shirley . Thank you.

To the DJ, Emcee , and Performer
Thanks for helping giving us your full commitment for this event. DJ Flicko, Wanku, Mr. Vishnu , Childhood Dreamers, Badass Soldier , and Afiq Fauzi , Thank you

Okay I should stop talking and let the picture do the talking.

DJ Becka Lecko?

Part of the Committes

Marcus , Fatin , Rabieka , Syahmi

Rabieka , Sanjay , Syahmi , Marcus

Shafira Madina:)

Ainul Nadiah

Prom King and Prom Queen

Prom King And Male Best Dressed. :D

The One With The Jessica Alba Type

2008-12-24T21:16:00.004+08:00

1. What is your full name?
Syahmi Abd Rahim

2. Names that people call you?
Syah , Mi , JT , Obama ( org takde sivik calls me that) haha , Roo , Tribianni .

3. Born date/place?
12 October , Johor

4. Your favourite colour and why?
Greenish Green. Because i love to eat pizza. haha mmg takde kena mengena

5. Quality you seek in a guy/girl?
Understanding , mature , Smart and Jessica Alba's type. :p

List it!

1. 5 of your favourite hangouts and why.
KLCC : kinda near to my house
McD which located less than 500 metres from my house = Refer to the first point
My House : Bcos it is more comfortable than your house. haha
Ali Bistro : Mak becka belanja makan.haha

dah i cant think of any

2. 6 of your favourite girls and why.
Rabieka : She is amazingly nice. A wonderful friend , she is.
Sa'diyah : We're friend since we were standard 1 and we're still a good friend till now.
Syamira : A good listener :)
Aishah : err, dia pandai kawad? haha
Shafira : I got her vote for the prom king.haha
Hazimah : Share kredit. haha

3. 5 of your fav things to do.
Go online
Winning Eleven
Movies
Hang out with friends
I love shopping, really. haha

4. 5 of your fav tracks.
Phantom Planet - California
Ryan Cabrera - True
I'm Just A Kid - Simple Plan
All I Have To Give - Bsb
Wherever You Will Go- The Calling

5. Go ahead, tag 5 people.
Natasha
Hazimah
Denise Richard
Paris Hilton
Adam Levine

haha

Describe..

1. Your phone.
it is black in colour?

2. Your bed.
comfortable enough

3. Your room.
messy

4. Yourself.
Choosy , when it comes to food and girls. :D

5. Your addiction.
Hot girls. hahaha

The One With The Things That You Might Not Know

2008-12-06T02:03:00.006+08:00

I am shy , really
I am a VERY negative person.
I got nervous easily and i tend to smile when im nervous.
I dont eat veggies and i hate onions more than Tom hates Jerry.
I speak to myself more than i think i would
Britney Spears is my first celebrity crush. And yes i still like her. See how loyal i can be? haha
I am an observer. I observed people and i kinda think that im good in it tho. :P
I think too much. And I can be easily distracted when people say any bad things about me.
I have issue in trusting people. So basically, its hard for me to trust anyone.
I USED to be very coward. VERY VERY COWARD. I used to hate night time because i think dark is scary. And yes, i used to be afraid of the wrestler, UNDERTAKER too.
I listen to punk and emo songs because I'm angry. I listen to sad and jiwang songs because my love life sucks and mostly the lyrics in those songs remind me of myself.
I enjoy reading people quotes.
Sometimes ,when i see Beckham, Rooney or Solskjaer playing football, it made me feel like I wanna be a footballer. When I see Matt Leblanc in Friends, it made me feel like I wanna be an actor. And when I see Ryan Atwood in The O.C , it made me feel like i wanna punch the face of people who messed with me.
Remember when there was time where i always convince you to be brave to face every obstacle in life but i always scared to face mine? No, its not because i only know how to talk rather than do things. You have to realize that there is one big difference between us.Because you are just scared but im always TOO scared.
I eat A LOT. Yes, trust me, i do eat a lot. But im very choosy when it comes to food. so it kinda explain why am i still slim kan?
I started to think that people don't see me as a boyfriend material. haaa.
I dont have a date for prom. Anyone? haha ~~pathethic~~

Note to self : ~~Dont fall in love. You're not good in it.~~

The One With The Blah

2008-11-29T21:27:00.003+08:00

Nothing is important in this post. But i just wanna tell here that ill miss my friends in SAB no matter how few they are. I noe ive been there for 1 and a half years only but i managed to find good friends which i really appreciate. They kinda help me a lot to fit in this new environment.

Ive to wait until the last 3-4 months to be close to some of them. And there are also some who were my friend before but no longer close now. But it doesnt matter really. And to all my classmates in 5 Jaya, im glad to enter this class. The best Sab's form 5 class in 2008 I shall say. Thank you all. And sorry for all my wrong doing that might offend or hurt u. I wish you all the best for the future hey.

And u, i kinda miss you tho. I know the school is just end but i dont think we have a good ending this year. We dont even say goodbye on the last day. Last year school end is obviously better than this year. Way better. Well i dunno about you, but for me it is. But its fine now. Good luck in for ur future, and take care .

The One Where The End Is Not Near , Its Here

2008-11-29T21:19:00.000+08:00

Yes, the school is finally over. How do you feel about this? Sad, happy, disappointed ?

Me? I'm actually glad that the school is over. However, something is bothering me since yesterday. I cant really tell what and why. Probably because im afraid that my result will be bad. Bcos i kinda think i did badly during exams. Maybe that is. Or something else. I really dont want to thing about that now and please dont come to me and tell me that biology , physics , chemistry and add math is easy. Bcos it'll kill me , so dont.Anyway, lets forget about SPM okay. Its too late to regret anything now.

Unlike other teenager, i dont really have a wonderful life as a teenager. You can say that im a failure as a teenager tho. Thats why i said im glad that the school is over because i suppose that there wont be another high school nightmare. But it will be a lie if I said that i wont miss anything bout school.The environment, people , and others , i definitely will miss some of them.

I started as a Victorian and end in SMK AMINUDDIN BAKI. Yes , i know ppl from SAB is call Sabian but i dun really prefer to be called a Sabian. Don't ask me why. Anyway,I know ive told you that leaving VI is one of the wrong decision ive ever made. But hey, relax. I do regret my decision to leave VI but i dun think enter SAB as a wrong decision. It turns out to be a great decision. Meaning, i do regret leaving VI but joining SAB after leaving VI is a good decision. The one thing that make me think this as a good decision is because of the people here. Some of them i mean. This few people should be the reason why i can survive in this school for the remaining 1 and a half year. Thanx guys. Ill wrote something about u guys in the next post. Wait okay? :)

A lot of things change in 5 years actually. Even if i put it in the smaller scale ,2 years , referring to the period im in SAB, still a lot of things changed. People change really scares me. It make you realize that u cant really trust anyone. But i do learn a lot from both school. Especially in Vi. Ive learn to differentiate which is good or bad , which can be done and which cant, a lot of stuff. Basically school taught me a lot how to be a better person.

One of my friend told me that she's scared that the school is over bcos the future will be tough. She's definitely right. But i don't want to think bout that for a while. For now, i want to enjoy my freedom bcos life after this should be tougher eh?

The One With The New Nick

2008-11-29T05:37:00.005+08:00

Ive create a new nick name, which is ;

MATTHEW SCHWEINSTEIGER

No, i dont create this nickname because im emo or something. I just feel like doin it and definitely not because i hate my name. I love my name. Its great. Its SYAHMI. :P. I just think that u all will see the different side of Syahmi here so why dont give 'him' a name. I probably will change it again when i get bored with this current nick name.Before this I am Atwood Calrissian but now, i am Matthew, Matthew Schweinsteiger. It pronounces as SHER-WONS-TAI-GER. haha. Since i can choose any name, i decided to go for a unique name. hehe.

The One With The Senior Prom Night

2008-10-28T23:17:00.012+08:00

EVENT : SMK AMINUDDIN BAKI PROM NIGHT
VENUE : GRAND BALLROOM, GRAND MILENNIUM HOTEL, JALAN BUKIT BINTANG, KUALA LUMPUR
DATE : 19 DECEMBER 2008
TIME : 8 PM til Midnight
PRICE : RM 120( single), RM230( couple)
DRESSCODE : FORMAL
THEME : Tonights Dream, Tomorrows Memory

The Committees
-RABIEKA ALIYA ( 5M)
-SYAHRIL ( 5 C)
-FATIN NADHIRAH ( 5 C)
-SANJAY ( 5 J )
-SHAFIRA MADINA ( 5 B )
-SYAHMI ( 5 J)
-AMEELIA ( 5 B)
-HARIZ ( 5 C )

*Ticket will be given once you have fully paid. Which is , after SPM. The deposit payment can be done when the school is reopen ( 30 October 2008 )

** U can make the payment to SYAHMI ( me ) , SHAFIRA , AMEELIA , SYAHRIL

*** Check www.sabprom08.blogspot.com for more info.

The One Where Big Force Is Applied On The Area

2008-10-25T23:07:00.002+08:00

WELL MAYBE I AM JUST A LITTLE FUCKED UP,

LIFE'S JUST A LITTLE FUCKED UP.

ARGHH, I dunno why, but I tend to swear A LOT this past few days. The SPM pressure made me. I got tensed , fed up and anger so easily. Im just tired. Very. Biology is driving me crazy. Physics, Chemistry and Add Math too. Imagine u try to read the freaking book for two freaking hours and u dun understand most of the thing u read. It feels like im wasting my freaking time . Haish. I am happy because the school is finishing soon, but to think dat exam is very very near, it makes me feel scared.

My brother just bernikah today. It went well. Great. And next week will be their ceremony. I really hope my helping wont be expected a lot since well, then i got another excuse to skip study which is definetely not what i wanna do since the exam is 17 days and so. And when i said another excuse, the first excuse would be my laziness. heh.

Did I tell u that I dun really like going to wedding ceremony? It will reminds me that i wont have the same ceremony , reminds me that ill die alone . Yeah, wedding reminds me that i wont get the chances to get married. why? sbb takde org nak la..haha

btw i wont be update much now since SPM is freaking near. But probably ill post something bout prom. Will tell u bout the details here. So just wait.

The One With The Unused Plan

2008-10-17T18:06:00.004+08:00

I Have A Lot Of Thoughts

A Lot Of Plans Too

But Who Am I To Judge ?

I Don't Even Have Friends

The One Where Seventeen Ain't So Sweet

2008-10-12T18:47:00.002+08:00

Yes, i'm 17 today and no, i dun have a wonderful day. Thank you for asking btw. But thanx to my family ( im not sure who order the cake) , i finally get one cake my birthday. The last time was when i was 6 years old i guess ? Theres nothing much to talk here. Im sure the title of the post explains everything eh? Anyway, i wanna say thanx to those who wishes me ; well this is until 7 pm , 12 october 08.

( not in order btw)

Sa'diyah, Rabieka , Hazimah , Aiman , Sarah Zetty, Megat Abd Rasyid , Tan Wei Kiat , Safhan Audrey , Syamira , Aishah Odenan, Elaine , Natasha , Aisyah ( sarawak ) , Marcus , Eza Faiqa , Syamel , Shafira Madina, Teh Shin Mun , Safiah , Lam Win Nie , Zarifah Saidah , Ainaa, Hazim , Arda , Ariff Kadir.

Thanx . At least I know there is still people who remember my birthday. haha :P.

What I want for my birthday?
too many to be listed. :D

The One With The Rebellious Note

2008-10-11T00:48:00.006+08:00

Special
You think you're special
You do
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it when you laugh at me
Look down on me
You walk around on me

Just one more fight
About your leadership
And I will straight up
Leave your SHIT
Cause I've had enough of this
And now I'm pissed

Yeah
This time I'm 'a let it all come out
This time I'm 'a stand up and shout
I'm 'a do things my way
It's my way
My way, or the highway

Just one more fight
About a lot of things
And I will give up everything
To be on my own again
Free again

Yeah
This time I'm 'a let it all come out
This time I'm 'a stand up and shout
I'm 'a do things my way
It's my way
My way, or the highway

Some day you'll see things my way
Cause you never know
Where, you never know
Where you're gonna go

Just one more fight
And I'll be history
Yes I will straight up
LEAVE YOUR SHIT
And you'll be the one who's left
Missing me

Yeah
This time I'm 'a let it all come out
This time I'm 'a stand up and shout
I'm 'a do things my way
It's my way
My way, or the highway

Some day you'll see things my way
Cause you never know
Where, you never know
Where you're gonna go

The One With The Raya Wishes

2008-09-30T11:26:00.001+08:00

Hai, hari ini saya membuat keputusan utk menulis di dalam bahasa malaysia pula. Mengapa ? mungkinkah kerana saya cuba menawan hati cikgu bahasa malaysia saya ? oh tidak, kerana dia,, err, tidak perlulah saya menyambung kerana takut akan melakukan dosa di hari yg mulia ini kerana mengutuk dia. hehe. Saya pun tidak tahu mengapa. Saya cuma terasa untuk menulis dalam bahasa malaysia hari ini.

Sebelum itu, ingin saya menjelaskan di sini bahawa tindakan saya untuk menulis blog ini di dalam bahasa inggeris bukanlah kerana saya malu berbahasa malaysia , kerana, saya sebenarnya bangga dengan bahasa negara saya sendiri. Dan juga bukan lah untuk menunjuk - nunjuk . Saya juga sedar kemampuan saya berbahasa inggeris tidak sehebat mana. Malah terlalu jauh untuk dibandingkan dengan hebat. Saya masih kerap melakukan kesalahan tatabahasa dan banyak lagi kesalahan yang membolehkan anda menggelakkan saya. Tetapi saya tak kisah, eh sebenarnya saya kisah tapi harap2 jangan lah teruk sangat bahasa yang saya gunakan ya? Dan harap2 , tidak lah awak menggelakkan saya.

Mungkin tujuan saya menulis di dalam bahasa inggeris kerana ingin memperbaiki bahasa inggeris saya? tp itu cuma mungkin. Saya rasa saya menulis di dalam bahasa inggeris kerana saya lebih selesa bercakap tentang perkara2 serius di dalam bahasa inggeris. Tambahan lagi, saya sering BERMONOLOG DALAMAN mengenai perkara2 serius di dalam bahasa inggeris terutama sekali ketika memikirkan masalah. Dan ketika saya marah, dan melepaskan kemarahan di dalam hati, saya juga menggunakan bahasa inggeris kerana ,, saya selalunya menggunakan PERKATAAN F & S itu ketika marah, jadi ia akan berbunyi kelakar jika dicampurkan dgn bahasa malaysia.

Oh, mungkin juga saya menggunakan bahasa inggeris kerana sedar bahawa blog saya ini boleh di baca oleh manusia seluruh dunia, jadi saya mengharapkan orang2 seperti KEIRA KNIGHTLEY , JESSICA ALBA , MISCHA BARTON , ANNASOPHIA ROBB , HAYLEY WILLIAMS , JENNIFER LOVE HEWWITT , JOJO dan ramai lagi selebriti pujaan saya untuk membaca blog bakal kekasih mereka ini ? haha ye la tu.

Saya sebenarnya sudah lari daripada tajuk. Tujuan saya menulis hari ini adalah untuk mengucapkan

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

kepada semua umat islam. dan kepada yang bukan islam, err, saya ucap sama juga lah, apa salahnya, kita kan rakyat Malaysia? hehe. apalah yang saya mengarutkan ini. kepada yang bukan islam, selamat bercuti. Tetapi janganlah mengambil kesempatan untuk belajar ketika cuti ini, kerana saya sudah semestinya susah untuk belajar di hari raya ini, jadi saya akan rasa bersalah jika anda belajar dan saya tidak. hehe. Saya bergurau sahaja, saya tau anda akan belajar ketika cuti ini, kerana peperiksaan SPM pun sudah dikelilingi penjuru ? ( just around the corner ) ..

Secara kesimpulannya, saya ingin memohon maaf kepada siapa yang telah saya sakiti . Saya bukan lah sempurna. Kadang - kadang saya tersalah kata yang menyinggung perasaan hati orang lain. Saya juga memohon maaf jika saya TERkutuk, TERpukul atau apa2lah lagi yg menyinggung hati anda. Di harap anda memaakan saya. Terima kasih & SELAMAT HARI RAYA.

Yours Truly,
Syahmi Abd Rahim

The One With The Highlight Of The Week

2008-09-28T23:34:00.002+08:00

Last Friday, Rabieka, Aryl , Nabil , Wan, Sanjay , Asykal , Asykal's brother , Roslyn (she's becka, nabil and aryl's friend) and I went to berbuka puasa at KLCC . I went there with Asykal and Sanjay, thanx to Asykal for the ride. And yes, i do feel jealous when he can actually drive the car. And when i told my mum about this, guess what she told me? "Tu lah, siapa suruh lahir lambat? '' ngee.

Anyway, we berbuka puasa at Chilli's. I ordered a burger. And yes, eating chilli's burger in front of girls is not something dat i like to do, bcos the burger is very very big and yes, ive to maintain my reputation in front of girls so ive to try to eat it as neat as possible.haha.

After berbuka puasa we walked to Pavillion to catch a movie there. We watched DEATH RACE. The movie is very cool. The plot is interesting and different from the other movie. The movie finished at 11 .30 PM. And we were planning to return home with nabil's car ( asykal and his brother didnt join us for the movie), so again we have to walk to KLCC bcos he parked his car there.

Overall, the night was fun. We talked , laughed and even gossip.haha. But the best part is when we were walking from KLCC to Pavillion and have to walk back to KLCC. I love windy night. It just feel relaxing. And yes, since everyone is busy with their "date" , i got the chances to walk alone, and i did a lot of thinking during the night walk.So yes, the night was really great. Especially when i had a tough week. What a way to ,at least forget about it for a while right?

The One With The Award That I Didnt Get.

2008-09-28T15:51:00.004+08:00

Last week, again, the famous ANUGERAH PENGETUA was held to appreciate those who got good result during trial. And yes, i didnt get . I was quite sad,really. Its not that i wanted the award so bad, but to think bout my "dream" to be one of the best student in KL, it sounds more like a stupid joke now.

I felt like ignoring the ceremony at first. And yes, i was sulking the whole morning. And i didnt even want to see whos the recepient bcos I just dont care. But it will be unfair to them since they deserved a credit for their achievement. And yes, they deserved a round of applause from the crowd. And, i did clap for them after that. But again, i dissapointed myself by not getting the EMAS or PERAK award.

And THE BEST NEWS of the week. Im officially downgraded to PERAK 1. I think downgraded me to this class is the SOFTer way for Latifah to tell me "hey syahmi, i think i just put u in the wrong class before bcos, NO u didnt have a potential to get straight A's in SPM" Thank you, its really a "moral boost" for me.

The One With The Sick Note

2008-09-25T16:00:00.003+08:00

Im sick and tired of the people around me. Im just tired dealing with their behaviour. They make me feel like i wanna throw a punch at them. Yes i mean it. U underestimate me too much people. I had enough. Just because im quiet doesnt mean i weak and doesnt mean im scared of you. I will punch you if I want to, but i noe, its not even worth it. So just stop irritate me before i make u wish dat u never met me.

Hypocrisy. Why people why? Why do u have to be like this? Can we just respect and treat everyone else normally? Fine, u might say im just being too sensitive, but hey, i can deal with sarcatism, but im not dat naive to noe whether ure trying to be sarcastic or ure really underestimate me. Bad news for you, i kinda like it when u underestimate me, bcos when i got the chances to prove u wrong, its the best feeling ever.

And you, just when i thought ure the only person who can help me to go through this cruel world, but u seems to play this game which i call as the "Avoiding Game".

The One With The Countdown

2008-09-24T00:42:00.002+08:00

7 Days to Raya
40 Days to my brother's wedding
50 Days to SPM
66 Days to the SPM final paper.
108 Days to 2009.

Hello world. Im Syahmi and

I Am

DUMB.EMO.DORK.DULL.BORING.PATHETIC.

The One With The Book Review

2008-09-15T17:27:00.006+08:00

Well to be honest, nothing to talk here. Just dat when u dun read too much book, and u got to finish one, this might happen.haha.. Ok, its not really bangga la. But yea, i got to finish this book, and it took me almost one week to finish the 400++ pages book. I noe im not dat professional as u guys who can read it in one day , but its quite okay la kan? :P ..

Wish You Were Here is the title. Its about a guy, Charlie who were trying to start a new life after being dump by his gf. ( sounds familiar to u eh?)heh. and he got 2 friends Andy and Tom. Thanx to Andy's idea , the three of them went to a vacation in Crate Island. Although Andy and Tom were supposely went to this holiday only because they wanna help Charlie to find a new gf, they actually have their own agenda. Tom was trying to deal the fact that he could have a cancer ( but no he didnt) and Andy were in dilemma with himself bout whether he should still be together with his gf or not. Overal the story is interesting and a lot of unexpected things happened which make the story become more interesting.

This boring review were made by AMATEUR reader,
SYAHMI ABD RAHIM

The One Where The Jaya Class Is Now A History

2008-09-15T16:11:00.013+08:00

Form 5's people are now reshuffled into a new group. But no, im not gonna write anything about dat. I just want to write something about my old class, 5 J. or 5 JAHAT .haha no,its JAYA. :D

To be honest, ive to say dat i kinda hate the class when i was told dat 5 Jaya is my new class. I have like , no friends there. I know Wei Kiat is there, but i also know he will be "busy" with his chinese friend.haha So yeah, the first few month, the class was amazingly very boring. Well at least for me. But as the time move on, i got the chances to get to know the people here better. We are getting closer and closer each day. So yeah, now from only talk to people who sit besides me and in front of me only, i can talk to everyone in class . Including Ho Yan Zheng and Ong Eu Jin, who were in the same class with me last year, but no, we dun even talk to each other last year.

The teacher is also fine. Well i noe our "BM" teacher is always moody cold to everyone, but i do think shes better than our neighbour or "smart class" BM teacher. :D. u know who i mean kan? hehe. And yeah, we also have everyones favourite, SHABBY as our chemistry teacher. and how to top that ?haha . Last but no least, our ,i shall say cheerful class teacher Pn Normizan. Her cheerfulness somehow made add math looked less stressful than it suppose to be.heh

and then, our "racist" and "gedik" MONITOR, TAN WEI KIAT. He's the class backbone. ceh..haha He's like the representative from our class who stop the domination of the "K" students for the top ranking in school. Yet , he is very humble and he claimed that his 89 marks for add math was only bcos of luck. blah laa.. haha. Oh i forgot to mention, with his 5 Year experience as a monitor, hes no doubt the best monitor in SAB. sorry audrey. haha.

and 5 Jaya is now, a history . One think for sure, I think 5 Jaya has to be the best form 5 class i could ever enter in SAB 08. 5 Jaya Rocks!!! Dont they? :D

The Boys

The Girls

5 J'08. I was holding the "SYAHMI ROCK ! " sign btw. :)

The One With The Old Picture

2008-09-05T23:46:00.003+08:00

Syahmi Abd Rahim, 1996.

Yes, thats Syahmi when he was 5 years old. Looking back at all his pic when he was small made him smile. Why? It reminds him of his "happy time" . Back then , Syahmi is known for his cheerfulness and oh, he is amazingly active too. Im sure he dun even noe what sadness is.

It suprised him how things could change dramatically in just 12 years or so. Now, hes well known for his pessimistic , and pretty much emo. To be honest, he dont even want to feel the way he's feeling now. But situation made him.

Recently he got his trial marks exam. Well it is far from good. Its worst. And the best part is, it is 2 months from SPM and he still dun show any sign of improvement. Yes, he felt like giving up at times. Being around smart people in his class make him feel worst. He cant help but feel stupid. Can u blame him for dat? when ppl around him is struggling to get at least an A and hes struggle to only pass the paper?

Yes, i noe this sounds typical to u. U might say everyone will feel the same. But in his defence, he's not trying to compete with ppl level of sadness. So technically it is a different story. He's lost. What he really need is some motivation. Not a normal one. Something different. Something that can inspire him. Will there be any?

and if u think Syahmi is only try to win ur sympathy, then he suggest u to stop reading. Because he's not and he's sick of people who tend to critize him. Maybe u might say im only noe how to talk the talk rather than walk the walk. Maybe. Maybe bcos hes just scared. Very scared.

Yes , I purposely put myself as the "third person" here.I know this post sounds very pathetic to u. But hey its better than keep it in myself. I just miss my childhood time which I described as , Happy time. Its funny when i was a kid , i always wanted to be a grown up as fast as i can so i can make my own decision and it just look cool and maybe easy. But its not. Life is getting harder everyday. I always wonder whether i can catch up with it or not. Ive failed as a teenager. Will my life get any better in , well lets just say, 5 years? i dunno. I cant really guarantee anything. But one thing for sure, ill try not to let ppl who believes in me , down. Ill try my best to repay their faith back. But like I said, i cant guarantee anything. So lets just wait what will happened in future bcos i sort of done with planning things for future. Bcos based on what happened in my life, almost everything i planned didnt work out well. So whats the point of planning , right? Now, i prefer to wait. Let the future decide.

Suprise me with your life, future Syahmi.

The One With The Food Fiest

2008-09-02T00:34:00.016+08:00

Actually i dun really know what to write here. Just feel like writing something . School is starting tmrw and ill get all my low marks exam paper too. 2nd trial is coming and i really have to start study. Will I? I dunno. Apparently Mr Syahmi a.k.a Mr. Atwood is famous with his laziness. :). but hey, will try my best. SPM is in 70 days or so ,and im still not ready to make "the last push". Probably will make it when I realize how stupid I am to get a very low marks in exam . Yea, most probably. I havent finish read the book i lend from Sanjay. WISH YOU WERE HERE is the title. The book is about 3 friend. Charlie , Tom , and Andy. Charlie kinda remind me of myself. Really.haaa. why? ask me personally. Its hard to explain here.haha. Song call " Something Pretty" by Patrick Park is nice. Cannonball by Damien Rice too. I think thats all for now since i realize everything i wrote here is not related at all. So im afraid ill crapping and ull feel bore. So yeah, enough for now. Anyway, for all the muslims,

SELAMAT BERPUASA :D

The One With The Independence Day

2008-08-31T01:32:00.007+08:00

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY MALAYSIA !!

The One With The Life In Cameras

2008-08-23T18:03:00.005+08:00

"there are moments when we all wish life was more like a sitcom"
-Dr. John "JD" Dorian

Dont u feel the same way? I do. Life in sitcom is obviously more easy, theres not really the sad feeling, bcos usually, they'll make a joke on anything even if it could sounds unappropriate for us, as an audience. But did u realise dat the ending of sitcom will usually be "neat and tidy". Ya, i cant find a suitable word other then neat and tidy.haha u know what i mean la kan? heh. So will it be better? Maybe it will. Unfortunately, around here things don't always end as neat and tidy as they do in sitcoms

Okay lets look at the bigger perspective here. Lets not focus on SITCOM only. Lets talk about all the life in the TV character.Do you want to live in the life of ANY TV CHARACTER uve watched? I do. I really am. and if u need to know why, being syahmi isnt really interesting. haha.

So which TV character i want to live in? Its hard to decide, since i find most of the tv character especially in the show dat i love to watch looks interesting. okay lets combine all of them and create a new and better character.haha

I want to be FUNNY like JOEY , CHANDLER,ROSS ( FRIENDS) , JD ( SCRUBS ) , BARNEY ( HIMYM ) , SHAWN ( PSYCH ) or maybe SETH ( OC )
CONFIDENCE - like RYAN ( OC ) or SHAWN ( PSYCH )
SMART - MICHAEL SCOFIELD ( PRISON BREAK ) RYAN , SETH COHEN ( OC ) , ROSS ( FRIENDS ) SHAWN (PSYCH) or TED ( HIMYM)
RICH haha..- like SETH COHEN ( OC ),
"COOLNESS" - RYAN ( OC ), MICHAEL SCOFIELD ( PB ) , SHAWN ( PSYCH ) , TED ( HIMYM ).
CONFIDENCE WITH GIRLS :P - JOEY ( FRIENDS ), BARNEY ( HIMYM ).
TALKATIVE ( well by this i mean, the 'ability' to create an interesting conversation) - SHAWN ( PSYCH ), SETH ( OC ) , TED ( HIMYM ).

why dont u start wonder how will Syahmi look like if he has all this quality ? haha.

when it comes to the girl, hehe. i like a girls like SUMMER ( OC ) , ROBIN ( HIMYM ) , RACHEL ( FRIENDS). but i have to say that, i really want MARISSA COOPER to be MY GIRLFRIEND.haha :P.

and when it comes to relationship. I think RYAN AND MARISSA should be the perfect couple. i know they broke up a couple of times, but hey even when they're not couple, they're always a couple. i mean, they're always there for each other. and they should be the best couple ahead of SETH and SUMMER.

and yeah, If i ever have a girlfriend in future, i want 'us' to be like RYAN and MARISSA. :P. haha as if i ll have a girlfriend kan? heh.

The One With The Warm Up

2008-08-19T02:30:00.001+08:00

Just when I taught hiding things from people is the best thing to do, i was completely wrong. Hiding this ''thing" from you turns out to be the most hardest thing to do. How I wish I could just let this thing out so you'll know.

I do think a lot - Typical Syahmi.

SPM is less than 100 days, and I REALLY CANT wait for that. I didnt get pick for National Service which is very very great. I have made A LOT of plan people. You bet i cant wait to do all those stuff. Ill write bout my plans here after SPM bcos i dun want to get too excited for that. I'm TRYING HARD now to concentrate on my SPM paper first rather than think bout all those plan. But trust me,its hard. Very .

27 NOVEMBER 2008, please come quick.

Im currently stuck to Jason Mraz's Beautiful Mess. The song is nice, relaxing and the lyric is good too.

You've got the best of both worlds,
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him up back again,
You're strong but u're needy,
Humble but u're greedy.

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you can call it fiction
‘Cause I like being submerged in your contradictions dear

I dont know how the ending will look like, but I hope its the way i hope it will be.
And u'll be there.

The One With Ole Testimonial

2008-08-03T19:40:00.016+08:00

2 August 2008

Solskjaer made his last appearance in Man Utd shirt when he played his TESTIMONIAL MATCH against Espanyol. I was a bit upset because they dont show it on tv and instead they only showed Rangers vs Liverpool and Ars-senal vs Juventus match. and yeah, if I live in Manchester, ill surely go to the match. Bcos Solskjaer had been a wonderful player especially when he played for Man Utd. His abilty to score an important goal. be at the right place at the right time and hes also an inspirational person. Solskjaer or THE BABYFACE ASSASIN who is retired from football last year's August, was given his own testimonial match as an appreciation to his big contribution to the club.

Who can forget the 1999 final goal against Bayern Munich who he scored at the injury time to let UNITED won their second EUROPEAN title? and who can forget the 4 goal he scored in 10 mins when he came as a sub when UNITED played against Nottingham Forest ? just to mention a few. But yeah tho he dun played a lot, he still managed to help UNITED even if he only played as a sub player. That explains why he was given a nickname as supersub.

Anyway UNITED won the game by 1-0 and unfortunately Solskjaer didnt score for the match. But yeah, from what i see from the YOUTUBE, heh he got a lot respect that he deserved from the crowd, a standing ovation and round of applause. Im wishing him all the best for his career as a coach ( hes currently coaching MAN UNITED reserved team).

C'mon OLE GUNNAR SOLSKJAER, make us proud!!

OLE OLE OLE OLE!!

20LEGEND

The One With The Long Walk

2008-07-28T18:17:00.006+08:00

walking back from school to home = 1 hour of my alone time = Lots of thinking

yea, i went home walking on the last friday. why? one of it is bcos i dun have transport to go back home. but yea its actually an excuse for me to walk home. I need my ALONE TIME people ALONE TIME.haha. ive been thinking a lot during the long walk but yeah, i dun think ill share them with people for now. heh. As if people are interested to know right? haha ..

Like Marcus said in his old post, being emo is addictive. I cant help but have to agree with him. And yeah, its not dat I LOVE to be emo. But the situation made me this way. Some said its fine to go through all this obstacles bcos eventually it'll make me stronger. Maybe its true but still, it actually make me become more inferior with myself. How did it help me?I let my future answer it. Thinking too much wont help me that much , so yea, for now, ill just go with the flow.

Anyway during my ~~"emo time"~~ last week, i went to look for most of my old SIMPLE PLAN songs.haha. Well , i used to be their big fan and i bet my msn email surely explains it right? aha. So yeah, songs like PERFECT, CRAZY , PERFECT WORLD , ME AGAINST THE WORLD , SHUT UP and WELCOME TO MY LIFE kinda help me a lot during last week. Especially the "me against the world" song. Yes, im ready to face the world. Even if no one supports me, and no one believes in me, ill make it on my own. YEAH MAN!! ( copyright by Audrey) haha

What i really want now is to avoid being involve with problems with people, jusr being around with people who are actually appreciate me and do well in exams. Live life , i shall say. Well yeah, at least until the SPM finish. BRING IT ON SPM. I CANT WAIT TO LIVE IN THE LIFE AFTER SCHOOL. well yeah, JUST BRING IT.

IF YOU SMELL WHAT SYAHMI IS COOKIN'?

haha (ok too much wrestling on tv syahmi, too much.haha)

We're not gonna be just a part of their game
We're not gonna be just the victims
They're taking our dreams
and they tear them apart
'Till everyone's the same
I've got no place to go
I've got nowhere to run.
They love to watch me fall
They think they know it all
Im a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always said
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
I've gotta prove them wrong
Me against the world
We won't let them change how we feel in our hearts
We're not gonna let them control us
We won't let them shove all their thoughts in our heads
And we'll never be like them

Now I'm sick of this waiting
So come on and take your shot
You can spit out your insults
But nothing you say is gonna change us
You can sit there and judge me
Say what you want to
We'll never let you win.

-me against the world

The One With The Missing List

2008-07-20T23:34:00.005+08:00

I miss being happy. Believe it or not, its been awhile since i really feel happy. Its either i'll feel normal or sad. and not happy.Why? My life sucks. Did that answer ur ques?
I miss my bestfriends, before they changed. I know people changed and im really sorry that im not, well at least i dun think i am. And im sorry that i dun get it when u guys made the "friends forever" joke. I tot u guys were serious when u said that. The plans we made, the roadtrip, futsal and all, everything sounds like a stupid imagination now.
I miss being a Victorian. Being crazy in school , stupid prank , being sarcastic like hell, laughing the jokes made by 'crazy' ppl , PENDIDIKAN JASMANI with them are the best,doin haka with them , support our team( football band or wtv) , hearing the shouting from prefects, look ppl get scolded by prefects, being respect by juniors , "boo-ing'' ppl during assembly (haha) , i miss the environment and all. I miss VICTORIA INSTITUTION
I miss a "calm life". Life is too hectic and i cant really catch up with it. Selfish and hipocrite ppl made life become harder. I sometimes miss my childhood life. Things are a lot easier back then.
I miss being in love. To love someone and to be love. Its a very wonderful feeling. To think that there'll be no one who will fall for me, it doesnt make it easier. And please , dun try to make me believe the so call famous quote '' there will always be someone for everyone''. Bcos I dun think ill get one person to fall in love with me.

The One With The Song Dedication

2008-07-15T23:43:00.004+08:00

This is actually a song dedication for some peoples. I dun want to mention any names. Take a guess. I might dedicate one of this song to you. Oh different colour means different people. And if u notice i used the same colour twice, that means i dedicate both the song to that particular people.Good luck,guessing.

"And as we walk across this life time,
Leaving behind what used to be,
I hope u stop and smile
Think of u and i
and the dreams we tend to dream
Remember to remember
you and me."
[remember to remember]
"I will remember you,
and all of the things that we've gone through,
There is so much i can say but words got in the way so,
If we're not together
I will remember you'
[I will remember you]
"I'm falling even more in love with you,
letting go of all i've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you''
[Hanging By A moment]
''Well I'm wanting to know you,I just want to be in your arms"
"well I'm asking if you'll let me in,To your world where I've never been"
[In My Life]
"No one could ever know me,No one could ever see me,
Since you're the only one who knows, what it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with,Make it through all the best with,
Someone who always laughs at,Even when I'm at my worst,
I'm best with you''
''I'll be there for you,When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you,Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you', Cause you're there for me too''
[ Ill be there for you ]
''So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship the good times we had
You can have them back''
[Thank You]
''You think you know,What everyone needs
You always take time, To criticize me''
''You think you're special ,But I know and I know and I know and we know
That you're not"
"Don't tell me what I should do,I don't wanna waste my time
I'll watch you fade away''
[Shut Up]

AND THIS IS TO THE WORLD

"No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair
Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong"
[Crazy]

"I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always said
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
I'm gonna prove them wrong
Me against the world''

[Me against the world]

The One With The Meaningless Word

2008-07-02T18:45:00.005+08:00

Just save all ur flattering words, say it again when u actually mean it or dun say anything at all.

After all, Im always being the one

who been left out.

The One With The Lonely Evening

2008-06-29T16:19:00.009+08:00

After the larian, i went straight home since ive to rush because ive check the movie schedule for GET SMART and it will be shown at 1.45pm and i havent buy or book the ticket yet. So by 1 pm i took the bus from Ampang Point straight to KLCC which took me 10 mins. Then rushing to TGV CINEMA. And ah, i was very dissapointed to see the long queue. I just hope that people are not interested to watch the movie since a lot of blockbuster movie like WANTED , HANCOCK or HULK is still shown too. But no, by 1.25pm, when i was queing up with the others, i was again dissapointed to see GET SMART is full.. Haish. So i just decided to find another movie and I decided to watch SEPI. For those who doesnt know which film is this, its a malay movie directed by KABIR BHATIA and the cast are Afdlin Shauki, Vanida Imran , Pierre Andre, Baizura Kahar, Tony Eusoff, Nasha Aziz, Eja , Syed Hussein , Riezman and lots more

okay, im interested too watch this movie because Afdlin Shauki is in it and I think hes a great actor. 2nd is because Khabir Bathia is the director. I love his work in Cinta so im looking forward to watch his 2nd film which is this movie.

Too be honest, im not really a fan of malay movie. Usually Ill only watch a malay movie at cinema if its Afdlin Shauki's work. I think hes one of the most talented Malaysians in this entertainment industry. Like what people always say, he's P. RAMLEE in the making. ( SYAMIRA, i noe ull never agree with me on this but yea, we can debate bout this anytime u want okay? haha). I have to agree with that statement. He is P.Ramlee in the making. Hes a good director, actor, comedian and he sings too.

Okay, back to the movie, SEPI. The movie is very good. Well obviously its hard to compare between this movie and other romantic hollywood movie like A walk to remember, Just Like Heaven or the others but i dun think its fair to compare since Hollywood have a better technology than us, and plus they have big budget. But yeah, i think the movie is good. The storyline is great. It has 3 different story in it and the way they relate the 3 different story to be in 1 film is very smart. and i can say that this movie is very beautiful.

Overall the movie is about u have to appreciate ur love one, and dun take loves for granted. oh, another one, don't love someone because they love you. Love someone because u love them. oh shit, i sounds very jiwang..hahaha but wth, im SYAHMI. everyone noes im jiwang.hahahaha bleh.

So after the movie, I just keep on walking , alone in KLCC. My parents are not at home bcause they went to my hometown in JELEBU, N9. So i think its fine for me to return home a bit late.haha and i decided to watch another movie, which is GET SMART for the 6.30 pm show. But the long queue to buy ticket stop me. Im very tired to queue again. So i decided to just keep on walking and have my dinner as early as 6 pm. After finish my meal, i go to BURGER KING to buy a burger for me to eat at home. yes, i do eat a lot. trust me. :p.. i went back home at 6.30 pm.

Yesterday was very tiring laa. Larian SAB + KLCC is verry tiring. aha. overall it was an okay-okay day for me. :)